Hi! I have a bachelor in psychology and after that a few years of travelling. I can't find a job and should probably start a new education. Today was supposed to be my first day of a journalism bachelor but it would cost me too much. Besides... I feel no real pull or desire to really follow it through. I love writing and taking pictures, I love it more than anything - yet can't find the joy in becoming a journalist. I love people and psychology yet can't see myself sitting talking to people about their issues. Working at a desk. Paying taxes. Earning money. It feels like I've done it a thousand times and getting sick of it (but I'm only 23).
when I travel, I exist. I recognize a part of myself I've always wanted to bring forth - and there she is! But then "reality" calls, and I need an education, to pay bills, etc. I just feel fatigue I guess, tired of everything. Extremely tired, my mood is strange and I feel completely trapped, almost claustrophobic just by observing all these typical families around my house: a car, two kids, a house they'll pay down in fourty years or so. Going to the same job every. Single. Day.
How do some do that???? I need to learn it - I'm not fit for this... I feel lost, as depressive at it sounds! Hey, maybe I am - I don't know. I'm almost fascinated by the effect my home has on me. Only when travelling do I really live. At the same time, I feel an extreme greatness, I've felt it all my life. As if I'm destined to do great things, study a lot, I see myself reading tons, taking many courses and getting involved in business even. Yet I can't start. I don't know where to start. I vision my future and it's empty, it's a weird feeling. How can one have all these contradictive thoughts?
I wonder if any of you have experienced anything like this, how did you get out of it? Do you have an interesting career that you can recommend?
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I think that everything is changing. I think that everyone feels this on one level or another.
sometimes the universe insists you change track...if you dont listen the party waits for you
if such is so then even the basic task of getting paid employ or making bills pay wont happen
you Have to respond to your heartmaybne your not meant to be "employed/enslaved"
only do the role that contains joy
do it for free because its fun....and they will pay
good luck
ps academic psychology offers bugger all function....even when you get the MA and the stripes of tribal inclusion you have to go out and actually learn something useful.
healing professions for the future...hypnotherapy( though in the US the DRs own this:( ) kinesiology is awsome ....check it out
pps if either of these interest i know australia is much cheaper to get good education....come here as a student and travle and work at the same time ...yahhooo
I used to live in Australia when I was 18 and always wanted to come back for a long period of time. I checked out universities in Sydney but they seemed a bit expensive? Do you know of any that doesn't charge a great deal? :) Thank you for your advice :D hypnotherapy is actually very interesting...
I havent worked for another person/company a day in my life. I am self-emplyed and self sufficient. No I didn't get money from my family either. I don't use social services and yes i pay taxes when I owe them. IWhich isnt often. i travel, do what I want. Learn and teach. I work odd jobs when I need money and volunteer when I don't. i live a full rich life. You just have to decide what it is YOU want to do.
actually, yes i did. I worked for Clear Channel Communications one summer at a radio station. Was a lot of fun but only for 9 weeks. AND i didnt have to punch a clock. :)
there are a lot of crazy people in the world, especially in the USA, I don't see why you can't find a Job...