This was the last thing I did, before I went on leave in December 2010.  I desperately needed a time out, as each day I wake up I am faced with so many challenges and so many things that HAS to be done.

The children had to carry the tank to its position as the vehicle could not get past the rocks.

Working as a team! Children from the USA and South Africans to install a water tank at a rural school.

USA looking confused, HOW are we going to get it up on the platform?  My answer : "Teamwork!"

and of course lots of muscle!

And it is up!

The ecstatic team, from the USA, the teachers, school children, and my building team.

The children from the USA, did fundraising to raise money at school.  They called it Project H2Jo-Jo.

They are from Huston Texas (Cool people! these Texans!)

Melissa Ronnell - Summerwood Elementry

Peyton Ronnell - Summerwood Elementry

Nick Brooks - Atascocita High School

Anthony Lewis - Atascocita High School

Paola Beltran - Atascocita High School

Shannon O'Bried - Atascocita High School

Tara Bain - Atascocita High School

Stone Smith - Atascocita Middle School

Austin Chandler - Kingwood Park High School

Gail Wright - Kingwood Park High School

Scarlet Smith - Eagle Springs Elementary

Tima Huseman - River Pines Elementary

The USA team leaving!  A great day of sharing and reaching out to those less fortunate.  It made me smile to see how the youth are learning to reach out to others, and not just think of themselves.  It took a lot of coordination from the grownups, to allow the children to do what they felt they needed to.  Is this not what we are here to learn?

This was but a snippet of my day, it did not end there.

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The demands come from the spirit realm, my family, my boss and the greater good.  Some days I feel like I want to run screaming and hide from everyone, but I am not allowed!  So I end up exhausted and burned out!

Yet, I don't want to change it one bit.  I love the work I do, it is but an extension of who I am, and who I have to be.  Nothing I want is allowed anymore, not my dreams, and not my needs.  NOTHING I want is important.  I have to serve all there is.  Some days it is rewarding other times it SUCK and I want to turn away from it all and hide.  But my Guardians find me, and the demands are repeated.  "You are needed, you can't turn away, every time you do, it cause mayor upsets.  Please child, you are needed!" 

Then I would get up and do all I do again, even if I want to rebel, and say Fuck you all! Yet I know, that I can't turn my back on this planet, or these people.  They are my responsibility, and I love them with all I am.  At times I call them sheep, but I love the sheep, and will protect them with all that is me.

I wanted to be a farmer, a horse breeder, writer and artist.  Everything I wanted was taken from me, to force me to focus on what I HAD to do, not wanted to do.  It SUCKED to loose all you ever dreamed of, It SUCKED to have everything you owned taken away, and it SUCKED to be left standing looking at what your live was.

Yet during 2010 I came to accept all that, came to accept, that ME, this body was not important, what this body want is not what has to be.  I came to accept that in being who I am, I had to sacrifice myself to be who I need to be at this point in my evolution.  I have to be love, to love unconditionally and to help, no matter how I get treated.  To think of others and not myself.

To storm into the dark realms and take back the souls that was stolen. Never to fear the dark, as it can't touch me.  Oh they try, believe me they try! To Walk in places Angels fear to tread, to recover those stolen.

To be tough and tell an Archangel to get with the program!  Constantly reading the energy, studying the souls.

Giving the Souls all they need, Love compassion and understanding.  Channeling Love into the tapestry of life, where all souls are weaved into.  Reading the Ether, the Global consciousness, the planetary grid.

To pick up the broken souls, wrap them in love and bring them home.  Every last soul has a purpose, every last soul has value to me, even the dark ones.

Every day I defy the challenges, every day I face the impossible amount of what needs to be done.  There are many that are doing what they need to do, I try to reward them as much as I am able, because in the end every one that get up and do what is expected of them, makes the burden on me and others so much lighter.

To me the souls are MY children, I know each of them intimately.  For me they are the fiber of my being, the only thing worth living for.  They are the reason I breathe, the reason I love, with all I am.

Today there is a sadness on the Ether, and it joined the sadness in my soul.  As I look out the window I see that nature are reflecting the sadness I feel today.

I know it seems so far fetched, and so unreal, but what many never understand is that there is far more to this Invisible World, than they can ever realize. Just remember that you are loved deeply, and no-one are truly ever alone.  Some days, I still question, my own sanity, but in the end, it is not about me, it never was.

No matter how your world come crushing down around your ears, it is OK, you will be OK.  Even if it does not seem like it.

So there I have shared with you a snippet in my complexity on my life.  A snippet of the Universe and a Snippet of life.