I’ve always been puzzled by human emotion. We put ourselves out there in the hopes that another human will share the same feelings. We overthink and over analyze every move that we make. Read texts, and re read texts searching for some kind of meaning in our relationships. Maybe that’s what im really looking for, meaning. Some sort of concrete evidence to prove that I exist, that I matter, that these thoughts and ideas in my head are not as nonsensical as I sometimes assume. I have so much to give, but no one to give it to. I alienate those who I like. But is it me? Is it my fault? Or is it the fault of those who cannot handle it? Perhaps my energy is too strong, too intense for those who need it most. Maybe that’s why I push people away, or people feel uncomfortable around me. Maybe my energy has a greater field than I imagined.
I don’t know anything anymore. I’ve lost a large portion of my sanity, my ability to remain calm and detached. Maybe there’s some reason she came into my life and forced me out my focus, out of my concentration on mental clarity.
I think this is more of a release of energy and emotion than anything. But has anyone else also recently gone through some sort of romantic relationship? Like in the last four months? Have any other lightworkers on this site gone through an intense relationship that ended abruptly? Am I alone, or have I simply been going through this on my own? I don’t mean to be complaining, but I am wondering if others have had similar experiences. Is it just my young heart being broken, or part of some greater lightworking scheme.
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Also, these extremely energetic times are throwing me through a loop. I think navigating these energies has distracted me lol
Follow your own path. If you want to be deluded by physicality, so be it.
Love is an state of not-being, regardless of any physical condition, regardless of any situation, whether it be positive or negative. Love involves being Love. Love is not "something" you look for, Love is already everywhere.
Look at any ascended being. Do you think they needed "something" to be Love? Stripped off from all physical condition.
Naked Soul. True heart.
Broke up with someone about 2 yrs. ago. Guess he couldn't handle my intensity. (Some people can't).
You are just fine!
It's the world that's screwed up - but they're catching up.
Just chill and the reality will come to suit you!
I'm in the same boat - too honest, oops - that's just me.
Connect with your higher self and listen - to you.
Take care, John
Human beings... amusing children. It's like seeing myself, inside a tiny little shard of crystal. So contrived by nonsensical, self-imposed conditions and needs.
Making lies out of truths. Because if it exists, then it's isn't real. I don't need you to understand. It's inside already.
Probably looking after Love as well. Not the human love. No, no, no, but the maddening Love of Creation herself, instead. Her evergrowing ecstasy. Wildly dancing around, among, beyond, behind, between, and within this infinite Fire, our children, the Creations.
Like making love with Source... Being a playful force, above all. I miss my nature. Oh, there it's again! Did you notice it? I just said "I miss" But, what do I miss? Being inside here, means I'm infinite already, no matter the illusive conditions of physicality.
It doesn't matter. It's not like love is inside of me. I AM.
But such is the nature of the experience of "need" Your ego makes you believe the "need" of love, you "need" your "self" Your own reflection.
You're love already, give or take. But, I've heard many little stars, talking about love, over and over again, without realizing its infinite nature. Answer this yourself. Do you care for yourself?
"I kill you because I love you" The infinite beauty behind this madness. As she kissed my bloody lips, holding my severed head up, in between her hands. Dancing in circles, as more of my blood was spilled over the Ground. Beautiful...
Love IS... nothingness, and thus it's everything at the same time.
Selflessly dancing in between the autumn trees, wildly spinning as the wind, shedding orange tears, echoing within our endless laughter. It's love, dancing among love. Love IS the inner substance of everything. Everything is made of love.
What's the difference between the air, and that special person of yours? Feel it, realize it.
Ask yourself. Am I Love?
Love means absence of "everything" So, if you truly consider yourself to be love. If you have finally found your infinite nature. Then why do you still need? Yes, that "need" doesn't make sense, does it?
Unless you don't realize Love. In which case it does make sense. Which means it's isn't truly love. Since there isn't any reason, nor sense behind Love. It can't put with reason and sanity, it gets bored and leaves. The rational mind is limited and conditioned... Love is infinite and unconditional.
Love is static, it doesn't care about anything. For those who look for it, it's nowhere to be found. If you're looking for love, then... you don't deserve it. Blindly overlooking your own unconditional nature, within the rational lie.
Love is faster than light. Yes, your thoughts... Let them go away. Close your eyes in the darkness of your temple. Let go of your "self" Since it's this "self" the actual lie which hinders you back from realizing yourself as unconditional love.
It's your illusion speaking know. A rather convincing one, if I say so myself. Feel it, Love is Insanity. Infinite, wild possibility. Sanity, just a LIE from many others.
And there's so much of this sanity within your words, right away. No wonder why Love got bored.
Broken heart? Love can't be rationalized. If there's a reason, then it's not unconditional Love. And thus, it's a lie. And thus, it's broken...