Do you have the nagging feeling that you are here for a purpose, yet feel torn because 'time' is running out?
This is really stressing me out, as I know my purpose and my mission but it is taking so long to get everything in order. I can't focus, and I have my own pain to cope with (as we all do), not feeling as if we belong, yearning for our spiritual family and our 'home' of origin (peaceful planet).
It feels as if 'coping' through every day is a major challenge - seeing we are sensitive to practially EVERYTHING. And even in the last month, I feel even more a stranger here on Earth, and yet have become even MORE SENSITIVE to things (but have become vegetarian and reducing chemicals in my home). Yet I live a very disciplined lifestyle to a degree, then in painful times, I still need a drink to get me through. While it might make a tear in my aura, it doesn't stop information coming through me on an intuitive level. What I have to offer humanity would greatly assist them.
I find a drink really helps me through. I tell myself 'if only I disciplined myself to meditate during these painful times instead of drinking' (I did meditate this morning and some helpful information came through that provided a solution to a problem I had, and I had a good day. It was unreal!). I was going to pay a clairvoyant for some counselling but the answer came through meditation. It's happened several times.
I want to help humanity, and I feel that a sense of purpose is far stronger than just 'surviving'.
I don't mind abusing my body because I want to go 'home'. I know I shouldn't abuse it, but the yearning to go home is incredibly strong. All I need is a little support and I'd be right. But in order to heal myself, I need to be a recluse. Catch 22.
Butterfly (formerly someone else).
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hi gooty
John was also talking about 'first contact' on this thread.
Yes we are required to be 'strong'.
I only read about the merkaba this week. I'm yet to know more about it. I wouldn't mind making one to meditate inside of it. Speaking of meditation, I meditated in search for an answer (even tho hungover) and it worked like magic.
I think I'm just drinking lately due to some personal pain that I'm working through. But only the other week I was losing the desire for alcohol and wanted to stop this practice. Perhaps a new activity such as sitting outside at night could be nice, or spending time being creative, rather than just going into my own fantasy world (which I enjoy).
Thanks Christa
Yes you do make sense. What you say puts my mind at ease.
I do feel frustrated that I have so much information that could help so many people. But as someone else mentioned on this thread, they, like me, feel as if we are swimming in treacle.
I guess 'this too shall pass'. Sigh sigh
Hiya. Firstly, please remember that you chose your body, this incarnation at THIS time for a reason!!!! And a very specific reason. We are at the most important turning point/crossroads ever for humanity and Gaia.Mother Earth. You are here because you chose to be and remember that your individual energy and our collective energy is making a difference as you anchor the light and hold the light frequencies that you are you doing whether conscious of it or not. What i finds helps immensely in times like these is gratitude. Remembering and being grateful for all that you may have, such as family, food on the table, friends etc, can really help refocus your thoughts on the important things in life.
To speak of "light" and of "dark" is of course judgemental, however, in this world of polarity those terms are well understood so i will use them. This time around the "light" will prevail, it is just that we are going thru those intense times as we collectively shift and collectively choose our future. Peace and Blessings.
Hi Barron
I respect your input alot.
Just can't be grateful for 'friends' as I'm just more reclusive and I'm avoiding most people... he he. But I get your point - yes we are well fed, and warm and clothed.
Thanks
I feel the same as most of the replies here. Thank you for sharing. I've felt like there are those that can and those that can but struggle. I am the latter. I intoxicate my body with caffine and nicotine and I know in these dark and difficult times I should be cleansing and healing my body from within but I find it so difficult with the lifestyles we lead and the pressures that is put upon us by the charlatan rulers. Time is short and when you are working long days I find it almost impossible to make time for me. When I do, there's usually others around me, so an opportunity to be peaceful and still is very limited.
I have been to some dark places over the last few years, I know that this can be as a result of finding your true spiritual awareness which I did a few years back. I found this website really interesting.
http://www.dawndreamer.modern-thinker.co.uk/index.htm
However I truely believe that spirit will ensure that i'm in the right place at the right time doing the right thing. They have up until now :-) There is definately something to be said about trying too hard, which is what I think i'm doing now. We all know things are changing and changing very quickly now. I can't wait for the day that this planet is free from tyranny, murder, hatred, suffering and that sense of loneliness and isolation.
Love, light and peace x x x
you are really noticing duality and dont forget u have like me i am sure left some energy somewhere when you were younger and a partier i think we are getting a chance to get this energy back and have a good ole fashion buzz at the same time for instance lets say i recently smoked some bud and whited out like i walked into the sun and boom i am on another plane and i see a young shiva crying under a big leafy plant he is very upset and as i watch i feel compeled to comfort him i walk up to him and ask what has you so upset and he replies my mom and dad are fighting what about i ask and he says they dont have enough food to sell and that they might not get all they need for the winter hardships and i say did you know where i just came from your a god to many ppl and he say thats funny here your a god to my ppl and bam we become one in agolden flash and the plant we are under absorbs a lot of this kinetic soul transmutation energy and tada mary j is born it contain our soul energy and the field is surrounded by these plants and as we look at them they are all oozing golden juices and we both run off in the same body with a big ole bud all the way home and throw it on the fire the parents calm down stop there fighting and look at us in wonder they see the change and we say to them this is our new crop and boom i am back in my body here talking to u over 100s of miles without a word i think i will go make me a drink .
p.s. gods have soma and if we r all gods children what r we growing up to be