Somehow after my 3NDE's the feeling of wanting to leave Earth has never gone away. ( rest ashure i am not suicidal) And anyways i do not believe in death, or at least the death of me as a soul. So here i sit wondering about my free will and the fact that i could end my own life as i see fit. The thing is that re-incarnation problem that sends you back again to keep so-called learning what you missed the time before last. I feel like a actor that got bored of his part and needs to leave on vacation.
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at least consider yourself still pretty 'lucky' to still not being suicidal yet..
I myself (& I'm sure a lot of people, ie: the real good, honest, kind, sincere, and also some of the smartest, and/or most 'creative' type of people) have seriously feeling suicidal so much .. that I almost see NO purpose anymore/whatsoever to still be living in this shithole or hell ..
I have sadly long lost faith in humanity..
Most people / humans are just so shallow, superficial, selfish, ignorant, stupid, and the worst: full of lies, tricks, & deceits just for THEMselves ! never care too much about other person/people or Mother Nature !
Humanity is cursed and doomed ..
I hate people / humans ,
and reality sucks & boring !
How I often wish I could just simply escape this 'shithole / hellish' LIMITED reality ('prison'!!) , to go into another universe / world / dimension / realms ,.. if there's really seriously ANY ! ..
God (if He/She/It really does exist) is playing some kind of sick jokes,
for creating "self-aware/conscious" people like me (& perhaps some or many of you here..) .. !
there is NO Hope .. sadly / unfortunately .. !
DARK reality we're living in everyday , with NO 'outside' help / Hope whatsoever .. ! everything mostly is just LIES, lies & more d*mn lies ... !!
- from Indonesia-
(nikiwonoto@gmail.com)
Hoo Cedric! i feel same- beyond hope, in catch 22 situation and on top of it- i am in Israel!.
unfortunately i have no words of wisdom or encouragement and the argument of being here "to learn lessons", well i am kind of sick of that too. i am 50 years now and the lessons were learned and i did all my homework too. from where i am standing i can say for sure- the human condition is awful, there is no reason to think it is going to get better, i do not believe in outside intervention anymore, the controllers won and we have like another 30 years of this shit..so carry on, try to make the best of your time here, only nature gives comfort and love and some humans too.good luck!
yeah I get that man
...Ced... Know Exactly What Your Saying ...<3 ...:)...
We are all stuck in this reality for a reason. Once we understand that there are other realities within this reality, we can then focus on preparation to exit this reality and migrate to these other realities. The problem is that most of us are focused on and addicted with aspects of the current reality we are in, and that is what may keep a person here (in this reality aspect) via the reincarnation cycle.
Yes, I think we all have that feeling sometime. "It is no measure of sanity to be sane in an insane world".
listen to music and watch funny youtube videos... to make you feel better..
Rose, I love funny YouTube videos!