The past few days have been draining, reaching out to my star family. Lonely, quiet, and starved of attention. saturday, I leave night job early with intent to star gaze. clouds were temporarily not obscuring my view. I saw a fleet of ships, who it was, i don't know, i never know. i am never told whom, they just show up when asked to. for confirmation they zipped across the skies passing the commercial airliners below them, and powering up with love and light. I cry out what happen to my friend that knew many langages and even fluent chinese? since that was the last conversation i remembered having with the being, He never returned to chat with me more, he left, left me alone and friendless. I cried to my light worrior friend, do you know who was visiting me? Please tell me for i don't know who these family members were, greys? sirians? i don't know...not knowing is torture, i am a person that perfers verification.

I slept last night wondering as i have been wondering for many weeks, where is my friend? what happen to my friend? I live in a town where making friends is not easy,

Anyways, I dreamt of my ex who was a guy that saw me as, no value. Why did i dream of him? i don't know, i am not with him, i perfer not to think of him, and i haven't seen or spoken to him in a year going on two. Towards the end of my dream I was in a car with him and he said in a frightening voice, "now we'll see who you trust!' and turned into a skeleton of some sort, i never experienced this before, I rebuked this creature called on jesus, my guide Alex, my mother, my real and true star family and i even called light worriors, to protect me and my space for i have control over who visits and who doesn't. I guess I was tried....for friendship is something i really want in my life.

Patience has never been a strong suit for me, I like consistency. I don't like waiting for snail mail from the cosmos or from anyone quite frankly. I'm a lovely person, but i'm not a girl of Hakunamatata, I don't throw religion or scriptures of love and light in people faces, or flower power. I do infact share my interests if one ask........and now..... i wait. 

-Namaste