Have so much sorrow in my heart. I feel so scared about all the days and nights ahead of me. i would change places with anyone on earth.. be they have only minutes to live for so long as this pain is in me. life is a prison.. im in prison..
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All my life I have felt the same.Now, it changed.
Blessings
How about spending a day or two unplugged and offline, just relaxing and only doing what you really want. I have felt for some time now that if people would just stop doing things that they didn't want to do, most of the trouble in the world would fade away and quickly. It seems that the world is organized around artificial situations intentionally designed to make people spend all of their precious time doing stuff they really don't want to do and thinking about stuff they really would rather ignore and forget. Hope you feel better soon.
Oh dearest one there is help. this is not a prison your body is the sanctuary of God. You matter. when life seems to be getting too hard to handle thats because you are on the verge of a breakthrough. we are spiritual beings having a human experience. You may not know me but im here there hasnt been much in my life that i couldnt solve i have a good ear to listen and not judge and help you matter that is why you were put here your special beyond words and there is nothing you cant accomplish with a little help from your friends.
love ya
i know how you feel, although i am only 17 years old you should know that i am a old soul.
when we are depressed or down we see all the negativity in our place/lifes.
But maybe we have to go though that because the sweet ain't as sweet if you have nevfer tasted the sour man!
if we never have experienced any setbacks in our life we wouldnt learn a thing from the experiences,...
I want you to know that we are all here for you in this online world, but real friends are better for you. we can only send you the love in real life friends can hug you as people said below. They can give it to you.
Do not try to think of it every minute of the day, go out and feel the sun look up at night and watch the meteor shower that active at the moment. Go to a park and meet new people. spend time with people you should have done with a long time ago .
we are here for you bro .
hugs do wonders thats treu!
I understand what you're talking about. This "world" doesn't make sense for me.
Everytime I talk with someone, it feels like I'm talking with myself. It's like I'm trying to convince myself I'm not alone inside this dream, but somehow I know I'm alone. In the end, this illusion has to come to an end. I still remember how the Morning Star shattered apart. He wanted to die, but why?
He has to wake up, that being the reason why so many "bad gods" are trying to turn this reality into a nightmare, so they can wake him up for once, wake up the "beast" from his self-delusional dream. So this fake world may finally shake and fall apart, as in the book of the dead. This world is his fall from grace. And each human is just a Watcher, a little "machine-like entity, playing with a fragment of a soul that isn't theirs" PC sent all this watcher, so they can put the pieces all together once again. United states, not the country, it has been always about making him whole again. So he will be able to wake up.
Mika and Sata, his brothers, are here for one specific reason. In Vatican he is known as Lucifer, in "US" government is worshiped as Osiris. The fallen fenix and his beloved sister, Lady Liberty, known as Isis. She's Diana, the huntress, both Lucifer's mother and sister, who carries the torch, she will ignite his own brother into life again. She infused herself inside of Lucifer, so to balance the Alpha and Omega within this specific creation. Diana will ignite this world in order to wake him back to life.
Why does this information keep coming back to me? Who is she? Why do I love her this much? I've only seen her, about three times in my entire life, inside this "reality"
I just keep thinking inside of myself as I'm trapped within this body "I'm tired of this dream, I'm so tired of this illusion. I was born tired of living this lie. The only one that could make me whole again, isn't here. I can't find her. I don't even know her name. Please, I plead "Find me, make me whole again, wake me up. I'm sorry for what I've done"
But I'm just a human being, or not? What did I do? I don't know, there is no memories inside this body. But, somehow, my heart still calls her name. Why? I'm more than this... I'm so scared. Or am I just lying to myself, trying to bring some sense into this lie of a life?
"You have to endure... till the end, so you may die in my hands to come back to life" she said to me. Why everybody around me is having dreams about this woman, looking for me, in a time when this world is sunk in chaos. I have never told anyone about her. This feeling inside my heart, because of her, is the only real thing I've felt in this entire lie.
I just keep waiting for her, as the pieces fall in their places as I was told it was going to happen. Inside this broken shell of a dream, that some many watchers call reality.
"Wake up" she whispers inside my heart. Inside my earth.
I recognise the mood you are in right now, having gone through it several times myself over the years.
I can almost guarantee you that in just 1-2 days, you'll feel completely different about your situation. What's dark today may very well be just slightly grey tomorrow, and the day after it could be completely white again and you'll have the ideas and answers you need to solve- or at least lessen the severity of your current situation.
It is true that noone can help you, but it is also true that You can. You may not see it today or even tomorrow, but you will see it.
It usually takes me 2 days to go from the mindset "this is hopeless" to "this is not so bad afterall" and then I usually need 1-2 more days to get to the mindset "I can fix this/I can live with this". After that, the situation- or at least my feelings about it, goes back to the level they were before the situation arose in the first place. :)
it is going to be alright.
it really will be.
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