Misunderstood and hated

I just recently had my awakening early this year and it was such a painful and confusing process for me.Especially that i had such heavy karma along with me.Thank God,my husband and family and some few friends were supportive..especially my spouse..our relationship has gone through such trauma amidst the complexity of the situation.He never left my side,our kids and especially God,Jesus,Blessed Mary,St.Michael,St Uriel,Sr.Raphael and all the angels struggled with me through this soul journey.I had to pray,meditate and do a lot of researching to understand myself better.It was all so hard for me..i must admit..at the same time wonderful knowing my Gifts.But,what i cannot understand was the pain,ridicule,insults,persecutions i had to go through..all the cyber bullying..the profane words,disgust,hatred,envy..of which i shouldered it all so heavily..the pain was so excruciating inside my heart especially knowing how people i am close to are ashamed of me and of what i've become and of how much i have been hated and treated so lowly.The more it became too painful when i had to hide deactivate my account in facebook because i can no longer handle the emotional and psychological trauma i experienced..by only expressing myself there and what i have gone through.It got so much to me and my health that i was rushed to the hospital...some mild heart problem and hypertension.I was so painfully drained with all the negativity from others and the energy i gave away in helping people heal and making them aware of this phenomenon.I did out of the purest of intentions and i must admit maybe being proud a bit for what i have maybe to spite people who hated me there for which i know was of my own doing.I have been facing my fears now..i returned there with a new account and has been finding inner peace within me..so hard but i have to do this because if i cannot express and create myself i might as well die.My poor husband and kids also suffered with me..and really breaks my heart especially for my loving husband. Up to now i know some have been stalking,hating and ridiculing me there but i just try to live each day with a tearful smile and joy in my heart for i know this is how i am designed by Our Creator..to fulfill this mission with a peaceful and loving heart.Love,Peace,Light and blessings..i am feeling more in sync,safe and with a sense of belonging here,everywhere i go had such a hard time fitting in without being misunderstood,hated and ridiculed even with those of the same race that i am and the same as we are or if some of them are not yet adept..thank you,Ashtar and fellow Star brothers and sisters.

Thank you so much,Eiskel..you really connected with me here.It really gave me so much tingling energy at the back of my neck.Sort of overjoyed and mixed emotions really.Because everything you wrote really did tell a great deal about me and my experience.Now,i am finding such inner peace and healing being here,so much work to be done for me on this part,but i am starting to be strong here i hope.I guess my third son Kyle got the message from the Divine to lead me here.So so connected now really.Thank you,Eiskel knowing i have star brothers and sisters here now,my Family! This time,i can truly be myself here..be inspired,peaceful,loving,happy and creative and as transparent as i can be..and so learning much from you and the rest of our Star Family here.Hope we can also be friends in facebook.Love,Light,Peace and Blessings!~*~*~*~*

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Exo October 20, 2010 at 3:58pm

Welcome to the site Karen. Are all the Cuevas here related?

Can you tell us what you have done for people to ridicule and hate you? You actually do not need to exchange negative energies with them. If they send you negative energies, transmute them but do not send the negative energy back to them. It will be a non stop cycle that will drain you of your energy (and that is what happened to you). Send them love instead. They will surely scratch their head because of your reaction and at the same time you are cutting off the negative energy that is going around. You are a light worker, after all.
- Karen Mae Cuevas > Exo October 21, 2010 at 2:19am
  
  Thank you..Exo for welcoming me.. i may have gone through so much sharing,and the words may have hurt others unintentionally for my extreme sensitiveness,bearing the anger,envy and negativity of others..being so protective of my sons and had gone through such extreme ways in doing so.I have faced whatever heavy karma i have brought with me through tears,pain,fear and anger. I am going to follow your advice..and from other loving soul brothers and sisters here for i know it is time for me to listen..for my own good and others as well.Yes,i am inspired now..i am a Light worker.Thank you,Exo!Love,Peace,Light and blessings always!~*~*~*
- Wingmaker71 > Exo October 20, 2010 at 4:56pm
  
  Det är svårt å holde sina energier oppe när man blir massivt dränerad av okuniga människor..tro mig jag vet..
  - Karen Mae Cuevas > Wingmaker71 October 21, 2010 at 2:21am
    
    Indianen..thank you..i will try my best to stop the cycle of negativity..i can..all is well!..:)Love,Peace,Light and blessings~*~*~
- Light Cuevas > Exo October 20, 2010 at 4:17pm
  
  She's my mother, lol :)
  - ^Kyle^Yggdrasil^ > Light Cuevas October 21, 2010 at 2:26am
    
    yep, all related. my mother too. lolz :D
  - Karen Mae Cuevas > Light Cuevas October 21, 2010 at 2:20am
    
    Love you so much,son!
Karen Mae Cuevas October 20, 2010 at 10:13am

Thank you so much,Eiskel..you really connected with me here.It really gave me so much tingling energy at the back of my neck.Sort of overjoyed and mixed emotions really.Because everything you wrote really did tell a great deal about me and my experience.Now,i am finding such inner peace and healing being here,so much work to be done for me on this part,but i am starting to be strong here i hope.I guess my third son Kyle got the message from the Divine to lead me here.So so connected now really.Thank you,Eiskel knowing i have star brothers and sisters here now,my Family! This time,i can truly be myself here..be inspired,peaceful,loving,happy and creative and as transparent as i can be..and so learning much from you and the rest of our Star Family here.Hope we can also be friends in facebook.Love,Light,Peace and Blessings!~*~*~*~*