I'm sorry

This post is about my last posts. Yes.

In the last days I've hit bottom. It was hard, it was painful. I was able to know my multidimensional self nature, many voices, speaking within myself. Exposing my worst fears, playing with me. Some of them were evil, some other were good.

I had to fight against my nemesis... myself. Because I didn't wanted to recognize something this obvious. That I love her, but I don't need her. She was my last trial, the hardest one. She knew as I knew it as well, that within Light frequency I wouldn't need anything, and this included even her.
Many times I've been within the cosmic Light frequency where there's infinite bliss, where you realize you're everything. Flowing within Spirit, the golden Light which brings peace and knowledge, as it caress your mind, soul and body on every level. Such a beautiful experience, it's unconditional Love. Our nature.

But most of times I have been in hell, just to bring my demons back into Light. I have given them the light they were afraid of. They were afraid, haunted by fear. I've saved them within myself. And so I realized myself finally. My entire life.

No parents, no mother, no father, no a real family, but crows(murderers) fighting against each other for money. Violence, physical and psychological. A tortuous body, for which I have been discriminated. An aggressive social environment, even teachers. No friends, just violence for "no reason" Many scars on both levels, without any aid on my side. It was painful without "anybody" on my side. I couldn''t find a self-identity, an example, a pillar, a path, a guide... You start to believe you don't have any value at all. I had even denied help from Light guides. Because after all that happened to me, I became very suspicious of everybody. Always against the current of Life.

And now, I'm here, shining as never before, impeccable, without a single scratch. Proud on every level, because I was the one who set such burden on myself. I just didn't know it. Just to be reborn, brighter than ever before. No hate, no pain, but full on light, a beautiful sense of peace and accomplishment.

And now... I just realized this is my fifth year on "vacations" Yeah, there is no thing like "working" to me. That word doesn't even exist, haha! There is no effort on my side. The effortless way is my path. Friends, people and fortune flow towards me, because I call upon them. People smiles around me, they look at me as some sort of example, a vision, an angel even, haha.

They have told me many times, how good it feels to be at my side, as I enjoy their presence as well, sharing my light with everybody. It's amazing, open innocent eyes, looking at me like childrens looking at shooting Stars on the night sky. Children and adults, both sexes, it's amazing when they look at you in that way. You smile warmly, they smile back. That makes me happy, because within my electromagnetic field, which is huge. Some people believe I don't have one, of how huge it is, I can aid them to wake up too.  

I have accomplished my trial on the harder mode because I'm God, a damn good one. You're God too, know it, and believe it's within your mind, body, soul and spirit.

And so, as I've chosen to suffer on my life, now I manifest my Light all around. Everytime I look at my past. I can't help but to feel good about myself. So much pain... and no hatred now.

I manifest my Will of Light within and around this entire world, and many other dimensions, as I've shared it with my multidimensional self. This is my will, this is my reality. This dark system is done.

And so I do apologize for my chaotic behaviour, even though I now it served its purpose, it might have been annoying or even disturbing for some of you. I'm so proud of myself. I Love myself. Love yourself too, and you will start to realize how everybody starts to love you too! They mirror your own emotions, because you're witin them, as they're within you.

Lets bring Light into this entire Creation. Wait, that would defeat its purpose... Light for the entire World!

Feel it inside your warm heart, we're all God. Now let's bring Light into this World too!

I Love You

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    • In freedom true freedom there's no room for fear. I learned this after a few near death experiences they say fear death well it was beautiful its hard to explain but if death is the worse thing well its not fear of death was instilled upon us to stop us from living and that's a fate far worse than death. Live be happy in the moment and for once lay fear aside and love without abandon.
  • 'To thine own self be true'... 'Be the change you want to see'

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    “Nature loves courage. You make the commitment and nature will respond to that commitment by removing impossible obstacles. Dream the impossible dream and the world will not grind you under, it will lift you up. This is the trick. This is what all these teachers and philosophers who really counted, who really touched the alchemical gold, this is what they understood. This is the shamanic dance in the waterfall. This is how magic is done. By hurling yourself into the abyss and discovering its a feather bed.” ~Terence McKenna

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    • I really loved the video
  • Your apology is respectfully acknowledged, but don't take it so hard, brah.... I really don't give a rat's ass about much of anything anyone wants to rant and rave about anyway. I do, however, respect anyone who takes themselves seriously, whether or not I can actually relate to what they are talking about and whether I agree or not. So, its casual, dude. Live long, be healthy, and prosper.

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