This post is about my own experiences and concerns for my soul's evolution at this time. I hope that some of you may be able to have your own questions answered here.
Most of us are aware of the changes that are currently going on about this planet, solar system, and galaxy. These changes and processes that are taking place are very important to me. My mind is buzzing about these events, stories, theories, and experiences trying to find some truth in the turbulence. As I live and grow I am beginning to notice a pattern throughout my experiences that is defining my purpose here more and more specifically each day. My main concern here is I keep having this feeling of being lost or disconnected...
Recently I have withdrawn myself from many of the crowds I have been involved with and really began to be with the 'right' people. This means I have a few friends, from many different circles of life. I keep mainly to myself, and my family here on earth, knowing that this is where I need to be. Within the circle of my relationships stories are being told of extraordinary dreams, out of body experiences, experiences with higher beings, and being able to channel certain energies. It seems to me that these changes of ascension are becoming more and more prominent with the people around me than with myself.
Naturally this raises questions. Am I supposed to feel disconnected from the many realities of the universe? Am I making the wrong actions here in this lifetime? My main concern is that I do not notice myself becoming more developed spiritually like the world around me. I long to meet my spirit guides, and my ancestors. I long to feel that ecstasy of divine cosmic love. I yearn so much to walk the astral plane and experience those higher density vibrations. Yet here I am. I can't remember the last dream I had. I have not been in contact with any of the multitude of ET's that are surrounding our planet. I feel trapped here in this life, in this dimension, watching the world around me evolve.
I know this message sounds bitter, and even selfish. But this is true to me. I live it everyday. I believe in the truth and power of our universe to the ultimate degree, but I feel that I 'my wings' have been cut. There was a time when I was a child, when I was flying through cities of golden light in my dreams. When i was a child I was also able to contact my twin flame (who is not incarnated in this time/space). I have since become so stagnant in this life that I feel I need a guide, a teacher if you will. I have no such being I can discuss these matters with, for my friends and family come to me for such advise. which brings me to my next point.
Ever since I was a child, people have been coming to me with questions, concerns, stories, anything that they wanted to share, it has been with me. I have been a great secret keeper, and a confidant for friends and family. I have been blessed with the gift of teaching and instructing. I have been able to explain matters that I have not yet been taught (in this lifetime). My concern here is that since I have had this feeling of disconnectedness, and isolation from the universe (to say it simply), Am I still "qualified" in teaching and instruction of the universe as I believe it to be? I feel less and less confident that I am who I need to be as an agent of ascension in this life. I know my gifts are my responsibility, and that I need to keep loving all the time, but I feel that the stunting of my own spiritual growth and experiences is making me less capable of a loving dharma.
Ultimately I feel as if there is something blocking my experiences with the higher diamensions and the rest of the universe. If anyone has any ideas that can aid me in my evolution, and experiences please share. Or if you have concerns of your own. Please put it all on the table and I' d like to see a positive discussion.
You my friend are ready for the next phase of your journey your disconnectedness is because you have transcended above you need to move on usually when we are ready for a new change we go through a doldrum a sort of depression not to worry though you are just reflecting inwards a transition is about to occur you are headed for a major shift in your life. God bless you may your journey be free of worry love and light sally
<3 thank you sally
Thank you Minerva, this was truly beautiful and helpful. Thank you for the insight into teaching, this makes the most sense. I am grateful for you. <3
Really enjoyed your post Minerva :D
Wandering Pariah you are one awesome Spirit. No need to worry about your soul because you are Soul. You are right on track. Relax. I know that's easier to say than to do. But work to relax. Sometimes it is work to relax, especially for me. I'm a squirmer, wiggler, got to do something-er. Just see, know, be. And enjoy the ride. And Sally is right. You are in transition. Breathe deeply. Smell the roses. Because you my dear are a rose.
Thank you Bonnie for the encouraging words <3
I think that you are perfectly fine. Just live day by day the best you can.
Day by day. Second by second. Moment by moment. In the eternal now. You're fine darling.
You are right on track.
Don't judge yourself by anyone else's standards. You are right on track.
It is not unusual for you to have heightened awareness when young. Only to have the circumstances of life come and "clip your wings" so that you can go away and dig to reclaim what you always had. And in the process get a lesson in humility, compassion, and integrity.
You just need to keep your focus on 2 things. Your heart space, And your frequency. The two go hand in hand. And I promise you, (and I make very few promises), that everything will fall into place for you around that. Don't bemoan what you don't have. Instead rejoice in, and work to maximise what you do have.
I will offer you this bit of advice as well. Your purpose is not to teach anyone. You are here to work your vibration so that you gain access to your higher self. People that recognize the truth in your words will take what they need. And ask for more a required.
I AM not saying you can't teach. I t just can't be your focus. Your self esteem must be your focus. And that comes from prioritizing yourself and recognizing the compassion that be in our heart. There is no such thing as stunting of spiritual growth it is the drawback on the slingshot elastic that you are experiencing. Redouble your efforts on you.And then let go....
You already have the best teacher in the universe. God Almighty that lives in you. if you
Make sure that you aren't mistaking peace for disconnection. And which realities do you speak of? Beyond your circle of awareness and influence, it is all just hearsay.
It is my experience that people who have lived rather hectic lives and then withdraw to a more hermitesque lifestyle find peace and mistake it for disconnection. That is the feeling I get from you. Just my opinion of course.
Are you being selfish? To Thine Own Self Be True.
WE ARE DIVINE SOVEREIGN BEINGS OF LIGHT
No ideas to aid your evolution, but your are MORE than qualified.