Hello warmheartdly all,
I really like an aswer to this question...After the sad Gollum life I citated below in fragments...I just like to say no ascension...Healing/Love I need...Hope one can say no to ascension. I seem more of a tormented artist soul, having experienced loveless environments, full of lonelyness, despair, and obviously depression!
...My life has been a sad Gollum life, full of sadness, loss (I possibly traumatically lost my twinflame...was high sensitive artistic as well), profound rejection, abandonment and many hardships beyond count. My heart is broken, I come from dysfunctonal conservative controlling parents who utterly rejected me (heart&soul), thought I was a defect (I'm a high sensitive introvert, heart connecting deeply into arts&music), sure I was heavily bullied...low self esteem, no love [they only cared about money], was told sex is dirty & taboo. My parents exchanged money for love! Threw all my creative interest things away [throw ones heart away]...Never listened to my intuition,had dark cold friends...even occult...Had plenty nightmares.
I was denied education in music/arts...Though some sensitive (female) psychologist and an artist in a rehab centre (was forced into a computing career against my heart, and I cracked...deep depression/trauma episodes) that I'm a very creative soul, though this is true [some said of a multi talent, though I tend to remain self-critical&humble)...Unfeeling authorities & cold-hearted conservative politicians had other ideas...Was recently tossed out by the Govt out of an unfinished music course (savage cuts, not academic performance). One can say I'm both got spiritual & emotional empoverished this lifetime. This is just fragments of my life, I could possibly write a book. For the creative things like painting, drawing, fractals, free prose poems etc...I need to leave it another day, as I cant even upload any pics in this internet cafe. One of the last cold-hearted hurtful phrases my mum blared at me before she died was...'Close your heart, dont help other people'. So cold, and selfish, something my deeply sensitive soul (even with all the traumas) never would agree with. I'm currently experiencing still alot of depression/trauma flashbacks, having counseling...Much is still not healed.
Now to other things...I've made a planet of origin reading (url: http://www.lightconnection.org/planetaryorigin/planetaryorigin.html) and it came back Sirius with Arcturus as secondary. I seem to channel feminine energy, not male at all...Possibly a Blue Ray. Maybe someone can direct me to more infos.
Yes I heard plenty of the Nibiru planet, and of the upheavals its currently causing to planet Earth...And supposively passing sometime later this year...Though I havnt yet seen it in the sky yet, but seen the (removed) images of Google sky.
If I can ask it this way...What can one do about all this? If the cataclysm/pole-shift is later this year...What is going to happen to souls who amongst other things, choose the path of no ascension? I would like more truthful informative infos about Nibiru in general though...
Hope this can do for my first posting....If in the wrong section, please kindly put it in the right place...*heart* :)
~Peace and Light~