Understanding myself

Since my Awakening...i have been through so much confusing and painful process of understanding myself and what did just happen to me,first i thougt i was going crazy,but i knew then that i am not.I have been asking my husband,myself,my Spirit guides..aside from visions,dreams,ghosts,voices,angels,apparitions of Jesus,God,Blessed Virgin Mary,St.Michael,St.Uriel...spiritual warfare with demons and negative entities w/ St.Michael's help and St Uriel,Jesus...Spiritual Gifts they have been giving me.I am also writing words i am not familiar with..before ,my husband and eldest son told me it was ancient chinese..since my eldest son graduated Highschool from a Chinese school here in our place..and my husband has chinese blood and speaks a little chinese. I speak it also well,and i have never studied Chinese before since i was a little child.But later on..i have been writing again another form of language..i am not familiar with...i just write it..And i noticed that when i heal my family when they are sick..i get sick too..it seems as if it all transfers to me.When i feel people are angry or hurt,envious or negative at me or others my heart does feel so much pain and a tightening feeling..then the back of my head..which had me admitted to the hospital a month ago for a heart problem and hypertension.I can feel now my body and energy is weak.I still manage to heal myself and my loved ones and family and other people..but i feel weak.Can anyone shed some light on this matter? Thank you so much...and is it okay if i stay away from people i think and feel have bad vibes with me..since i am a sensitive and i hear them saying such negativity about me from my ears even if they are far from me,i just could not handle it,when i did stay away i felt healing within..sometimes i see words on my mind,names when they talk about me.I see words,names and pictures,visions of people i do not know or do know..then later i see them or we discuss it.Few days ago,a black shadow came near me when i was sleeping and felt it almost took my breath away and choked my breathe and heart and as if by intuition i woke up and breathe heavily,my third son Kyle,felt it and experienced it too the same i did as they were sleeping the same room with me and my hubby since they are also afraid of visions and nightmares they see in their room,my second and third son,what was the black shadowed spirit's intention,what was it doing to me and why was it there?,we of course protect ourselves with praying the Holy Rosary ,meditation,white light,crystalsand .How do i deal with these? Would so appreciate guidance.~Love,peace,light and blessings always~God loves us~*~*

Karen, I think it is important and NOT good for you (and others) if you are looking after others when you yourself are weak and as it seems, under attack.
Heal YOURSELF first and learn to set boundaries and say 'NO' to others and respect your sovereignty and right to respect yourself first and your right to choose. By doing so, others, on an energetic level, will also be enabled if they so choose of course, to look after themselves and respect the physical vehicle they have and pay attention to themselves.
These dark entities seem to be attracted by you and your children and I think it might be helpful to get some protection for your home and your family and then... the strongest of all protection is LOVE, it heals everything and provides the most amazing place of safety.Send them Light and bid them good bye...:).. its not good to entertain them in any way!....Yes, they do detect your energy states and when you are beginning to be doubtful, feel hurt by others and as you get weaker, you begin to slip out of control and FEAR begins to creep into your heart and life. Remember we are all ONE so let the ones that suck your energy from you go and KNOW that all is well and All are equally loved whoever they are.... You, anyway, are not healing those who come to you for healing from your own strength, the energy of healing comes THROUGH you...and it is their allowing that will bring healing.
Take good care of yourself...:)..

Blessings!
Marion

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katrine November 1, 2010 at 4:48am

All these answers helps myself too, so thank you to everyone =) It's such a long and weird journey to finding oneself but I agree with the fact that you need to heal yourself first. There is a reason for their feeding, but remember its just an energy. It's strong but not nearly as strong as love and your own power. I also hear voices, my friends voices. If I read for a test (Im in college) some sentences are suddenly spoken loudly in my mind and the theme of this sentences are always on the quiz. I feel like a turle without its shell sometimes, or a bird without wings - just walking around vulnerable and sore.
- Karen Mae Cuevas > katrine November 1, 2010 at 1:26pm
  
  I feel for you,Katrine..we are the same,you are not alone in this..you are right that ignoring the negative energies and send them Love instead as all of our Star Family shared their wisdom and guidance with me here.It does work..given time we can muster inner strength from these.You are Love and we are love..as ONE it strengthens us and heals us.Thank you for sharing your innermost thoughts here with me,most appreciated.God's Love,peace,light and blessings always~prayer,meditation,self balance,grounding,Love and reading and learning~*we can~*
Karen Mae Cuevas October 31, 2010 at 10:45am

Hi,Blue_wolf_cat..thank you for the shared info...it's only now that i am aware of this.Thank you for the guidance..so appreciated..I will..God's love,peace,light and blessings~I love you all~
Karen Mae Cuevas October 31, 2010 at 10:33am

Such helpful and powerful words of Wisdom,Kat..thank you so much..it really helps a lot..I will keep on doing this to maintain balance and good,positive energies.It really does help..i am heartily thankful..will focus on these important thoughts..Love,Light and joy..i have been uploading beautiful photos and images that makes me happy and when negativity comes to threaten me..i think of those pictures on my mind and it makes me feel better again.Love you and all our Star Family.I am so blessed and happy being here and finding you and the others here.God's love,peace,light and blessings always,beautiful Star!~

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Karen Mae Cuevas October 31, 2010 at 10:25am

I am so grateful for your Shared info and concern for me in this,Commander Lightspeed.I will keep on reading and researching and listening to guidance from you here and the rest of our Star Family.I know it is for my own good and my family's and this soul journey is going to be a learning and long process for me ,still have so much to learn and lots of healing to do to myself and my family,i won't give up,god permit.God's love,peace,light and blessings always with you and more power of positive energies of Light and Love..~*~
Marion October 30, 2010 at 7:37pm

Karen, I think it is important and NOT good for you (and others) if you are looking after others when you yourself are weak and as it seems, under attack.
Heal YOURSELF first and learn to set boundaries and say 'NO' to others and respect your sovereignty and right to respect yourself first and your right to choose. By doing so, others, on an energetic level, will also be enabled if they so choose of course, to look after themselves and respect the physical vehicle they have and pay attention to themselves.
These dark entities seem to be attracted by you and your children and I think it might be helpful to get some protection for your home and your family and then... the strongest of all protection is LOVE, it heals everything and provides the most amazing place of safety.Send them Light and bid them good bye...:).. its not good to entertain them in any way!....Yes, they do detect your energy states and when you are beginning to be doubtful, feel hurt by others and as you get weaker, you begin to slip out of control and FEAR begins to creep into your heart and life. Remember we are all ONE so let the ones that suck your energy from you go and KNOW that all is well and All are equally loved whoever they are.... You, anyway, are not healing those who come to you for healing from your own strength, the energy of healing comes THROUGH you...and it is their allowing that will bring healing.
Take good care of yourself...:)..

Blessings!
Marion
- Karen Mae Cuevas > Marion October 31, 2010 at 10:43am
  
  Thank you so much,Marion..i am so feelng such healing here with your loving words of comfort and wisdom.I never knew this until now that it is okay to say no at times and take care of myself and not in too much giving away the chanelled healing of energy to others.We pray the Holy Rosary..it so much helps a lot..we will not give up on our Devotion..my loving husband has always been the one strong enough to remind me to gather us all during evenings and pray.I am blessed with all the Love and concern you and all are sending me here.I am always starting to forgive myself now when i unintentionally or intentionally sense i may have hurt others with my words or whatever i may have made them feel..and i send them blessings instead,i just try to do my best to always love and stay peaceful.God's Love,peace,light and blessings always,beautiful Star and our Loving Star Family here..Ashtar Command..you are all the Best..wish and pray it all also for you and us all~I love you,Marion..thank you again~

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