Like I said I let her go along time ago. It been almost 2 year since I've even talked. And yet Im still palgued...It like that ying and yang dance that April was talking about....I've tried put things into the past, and even sent forgiving energies(best way I could describe it). For a good long while I didnt even think bout her. And sometime I feel her energies, which are real irriateing. Am I koko for coco puffs or wht? I could sworn I felt her pray for me once...Even though it was long over due....Like Ive heard bout soul suckers...BUT THIS IS RIDICULUS!!!...adivce???
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i have empathy for what your going through, you have just described was goes on in my world. I am happy to know that I am not the only person who goes through this. What a relief.
allow me to continue...I have learned that I truly love her. I have learned that it is ok to forgive myself for allowing someone I truly love slip out of my grasp. I can admit that I played a major part in pushing her away, and it was mostly due to me being poisoned on the inside. Like most lesson, I have learned that I can be my own worse enemy. The time and connections that I share with her were literally out of this world when we have good times. But the bad times brought out of me and her some of the lowest operational frequencies that exist within our vibrational powers. Now that I am mature, its hard to not step back and see my mistakes. That stepping back as mentioned by John Jancur is not healthy because it blocks the energy for something new. Not just from the experience with her but as of now, where I am today, that relationship being one step of many, I can say one thing that I know is truth, "We are here to learn. Each person that is put in our lives is done so to teach either them or myself and ideally both of us. Every day live your life from your heart, to me that means, if it feels right do it. If you know that deep down inside you can help even if the situation may bother your social reality, even if its a 'pain in the ass to do', if you can find in your heart that feeling of content, pleasure, and the will to serve and please with all your power, than do it. This is why, because even if that person is your enemy, or you loved one, and anything in between, if they do not give you thanks, money, love, friendship, gratitude, or exchange anything, the universe/GOD/universal energy will provide what you deserve by acting from the heart. Ultimately you will provide what it is you want for yourself, and that will come. Do not limit your ability to help because the reward is not visible. Most rewards are never appreciated at the time received. Thats full circle back to this girl,she was your gift at the time, and you did not appreciate her and the relationship fully, thats why it ended the way it did. Do not be discouraged, try to step back and take hold of all your senses, vision and I mean full vision peripheral included, touch, smell, taste, and hearing. Now I will take it one step further, do not let vision or hearing dominate the other senses, strike a balance between the five we know, and eventually our two other senses will develop as well. I say hearing and sight because I have realized time and time again that the things that I see piss me off, like a ticket on my car, or if someone says something i dont like. Then i get all angry and i start to vibrate low frequencies which manifest outcomes that no one wants but everyone receives to learn lessons. But lately i think to myself, why am i letting my vision dominate my sense of smell. Why am I letting my hearing dominate my sense of touch and taste. When I do that I find myself stepping into now, and anger just disappears. Thinking of her doesn't happen. My second side to all of this, is that, while we were together we always had weird phenomena occur between our communication. It almost as if we were able to tap into each others mind at a frequency beyond that which is defined by our laws of physics today and captured by technology. Example, I would think about calling her and pick up my phone to dial, and her face would pop up because she is calling me at the same exact time. Things of that nature occurred between her and I, and we always chalked it off to being soulmates. I now consider her to be someone I love, and I accept that we were not meant to be in each others lives forever. We were both together at the very essential time we needed to be and share both the good and the bad, however we will never loose our connection. I cannot prove that she thinks about me at the same times I think about her, but a connection like we share cannot just disappear i think what happens is we force ourselves to forget about it or not recognize it. Since I have accepted that I loved her and that it is ok that I "messed" up, I have felt great. Goodluck, and I hope that my experience truly does empathize with yours, because for a while I wasnt sure how to define the experience.
Girls...can't live without em....can't kill em lol I'm only joking of course.
Girl problems can be tough. Especially if it's a girl you really like. I think this is where having a strong sense of self comes in handy. Just stay true to you...you know who you are, you are comfortable with it...if other people have some problem, that's a shame but so be it. It's their illusion because they don't know what a great person you are.
Try not to take it too seriously, be true to you. This is where self love is important, and is usually the main lesson in any relationship...especially one that goes off track. It's all a lesson...so just try to learn them and move on. I know it's easier said then done, believe me lol But it's gonna help you grow alot...
I've had many relationships in the past...and all of them showed me what I DON'T want....either in how I was and how they were. So it's all a learning lesson. And you know if I could, I wouldn't change anything, because it all lead me to where I am today, and I'm thankful for it.
So try to look at the big picture....I know it's hard in the moment...like if you're getting chased by hungry lions, it's hard in the moment to say...you know one day I'm gonna use this...lol But there's many lessons to be learned...if you manage to survive lol Just make sure this girl doesn't eat you up :)
Hey there!!
It is amazing to read stuff and relate to it, as if it was something I wrote myself. I had a the same thing where I was plagued by energy and was able to feel someone praying for me as well. (and can feel her pray the lords prayer) It feels invasive to be plagued by energy that is unwelcome that is why I put up the discusson "letting go". I would think that you maybe over this individual but the energy exchange is still going on.....she might not be "over you."
-maybe that is why you are feeling her now, because your energy was pulled back and she could feel it, and so she starts thinking about you. I have also found that when there is an energetic release from an individual you might actually get a phone call.
Call on archangel micheal and ignore the energy as best as possible. Take care of yourself, your growth, and ground out any unwelcome energy. What I have found the best that works for me is to ignore the energy, don't give back, cut it off. <DO NOT EXCHANGE ENERGY> Focus your mind on something else entirely......and when thoughts of this individual come into your mind switch your thoughts immediatly. I have had a situation like that but it lasted four years, and still can feel stuff, but I am getting empowered and not giving it energy.
I have had a big lesson around this, I hope this was helpful!!
love and light!
maybe it just takes "time"(sort of speak) for "it" to heal...........sure we are at the speed of light kind of mentality, but I believe in on step at the time regardless how fast things seem to be................
and, if I may say so, if one thinks he/she is plagued by something is only becouse this person allows it to be..........mind is a strange energy that can play many tricks on a weak mind and is misunderstood often..............learning is not a instant gratification and snap of a finger~it is a process like anything else in our universe and our planet.