Gratitude - And Death of my Son - Part 1

Without Gratitude, all Spirituality is a waste of time and nothing but an exercise in thought, ritual, philosophy or meaningless way of spending time.

 

Although it is easy to bypass Gratitude and aim for great heights, there is no doubt that this is probably the most important (big call) element that is commonly missed by Spiritual aspirants.  

By nature, and by this I mean, born into humanity or /and developed as a tendency throughout life's formative years in the human body,  the tendency is to desire endlessly.  Although desire is a normal thing, without a ceiling on desire a person will no doubt develop in way the feeling for more... more this more that more more ... give me give me.  This tendency is a time and energy chewer, because what happens is we develop a feeling of lack and with that comes constant craving.  

 

I found gratitude by accident... well divine accident i guess.  My oldest son suicided some 12 years ago now.  In the process of grief and many years of trying to make sense of it all, I realised that what one of my major issues was that was causing me pain was the failure to be able to give my son back to where he came from.  Sounds odd probably.  But here goes.....my son, like everything that passes through my life is a gift, my food, the roof over my head, my health, the gift of music, the people around me, and the beautiful world i live in.  It is very easy to take things for granted, to complain that what i have is not good enough, that what is happening to me I don't want to happen, that i need more of this or that.  

 

But handing a child back takes a bit of courage, a bit of gritting of teeth and a lot of letting go.  So in order to do this I needed to go back to square one..... square one is.... this is a gift, you don't own it, it's in your keeping , you don't know how long for but you better give it everything you got while its there ... oh and by the way it's not for keeps.... but you are allowed to love it for eternity.  

So when i became grateful and saw my child as a gift that i was just minding and not something i needed to cling to and own, i could finally let him go to where he needed to go to further his experience.  And yes I have met him beyond the grave and I have been assured of his well being,  he can travel wherever now and I am grateful that he shared just a short time with me.  And he taught me love, he taught me compassion, he taught me humility, he taught me detachment, he taught me every thing i am today and with gratitude I thank him.  

 

And as each day passes i am now grateful for everything i have and even when it hurts and i hit my limits, I can look at it square in the eye and say, thank you, I don't know what this is about but in time I know it will help me grow into a person of greater love for whatever i am gifted with. 

 

 

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  • Love that. Lol.

  • You have a beautiful way of seeing things.Yvonne

  • Anthony, this is truly lovely, Thank you for posting and reminding us. Amen Amen and Amen!!!!
  • your post is very powerful and moving~

    I watched my brother and his wife lose their son, who was a month old

    i have never seen, felt grief or anger like that before

    but what that month old child gave to this family is beyond words. it was after the passing of the baby that i started going through this change........forever changed inside and out......

     

    it is easy to lose sight of all we have to be grateful for, and move through our lives like entitled adults, but it is in pausing and stopping to smell the flowers that we remember....also to be reminded of being grateful is another good thing...

    *thank you*

  • Thank you for sharing these wonderful insights and heart felt experience.

    However I disagree with you when you say "Without Gratitude, all Spirituality is a waste of time and nothing but an exercise in thought, ritual, philosophy or meaningless way of spending time."
    People don't usually learn gratitude over night. It is part of a long process of learning through experience. Not having gratitude does not invalidate your spirituality, it just means you are in a process of spiritual learning and development. So all levels of spiritual development have validity for the individual at their own stage. Gratitude is a great part of spiritual wisdom and certainly when you learn to embody it in your consciousness you have made great progress.
  • I am so glad you shared this Anthony.  I can see the light you shine from here.  And I needed the reminder abouit gratitiude very badly. This post could  not have come at a better time for me.  I feel blessed to know you and I appreciate you so much.
  • An amazing story Anthony, thanks so much for sharing that. <3
  • Wow Anthony

     

    That would have been such a hard thing to deal with. It is hard to know what to say.

     

    I think your realisation as a parent, that you really don't own him - is very profound.  I was thinking if many people could read what you wrote (or even in a book), how much would their suffering could be turned into loving detachment.

     

    I'm glad you shared this.  I feel that I'd like my parents to let me go to a degree as I feel held back from my mission. It's going to come to that anyway.

  • Anthony, from losing my son this past January I also came to the realization that being truly grateful for all the time I spent with him and all the years that he blessed my life is about the only thing that gets me through.  I am trying to be grateful for having had my parents in my life as long as I have too, and am grateful that they will be there to greet me when my time comes, which by the way I hope is very very soon.  I am so weary of it all....all the losses.  If I had known what was to come in my life after struggling and almost dieing last year and the year before with a nonfunctional liver, I truly believe I would have not struggled so hard to survive, as a matter of fact I probably would have continued the chemo and I am sure that I would have been dead quite soon because the chemo was killing me.  Hindsight is 20 20 as they say so it is a good thing I did  not foresee all the loss of loved ones coming my way all in a short period time.  I would much rather that I had passed them they.  Then I would not have to deal with this heartache, but guess it is just not my time.
    • Dear Marique,

       

      There are wheelbarrow with thin week tires, which can carry little weight. Your wheelbarrow must have formula 1 tires.  How heavy your load, you are carrying it. And that is awesome. Further more, the loved ones you lost will be waiting to see you walking towards them after your ascension. Whenever the going get´s too tough remember that.

      Dying just before ascension does not make sense at all, then you might as well have died a year ago. No Marique, you will leave your wheelbarrow behind with the enormous load and ascend.

       

      Anthony, thank you for reminding us and shaking us out of our unawareness that the 3D is causing. Very quickly we forgot how happy and grateful we were at the sight of a beautiful flower and for the sunshine on a leaf. What an insight you have it´s just mind blowing. Every time when one of the doggies die it leaves me angry, crying for a week and missing the doggie for many months and that for a doggie. Losing a son or daughter is a trillion times worse. 

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