Hello! For some time now I've been feeling a lot of changes going on which I have a hard time to put the finger but some of the major things I've experienced is this:
1. Waves of mood swings. A majority of depressing feelings. Feelings that makes everything seem dull and gray. No drive to do anything. In this situation you want to just lie down and disappear or to seek something to escape like watching movies or playing games.
2. Insatiable hunger. Cravings for food and drinks like never before. The other day can be the complete opposite with no apetite at all, forgetting to eat etc.
3. Non-motivation on doing goals you set up for yourself. Hard to follow your routines and end up completing very few projects and things you want to accomplish or get better at. You end up doing just about as much as necessary.
4. I used to be a very active person physically, going on long walks, jogging, taking bicycle trips, exercising at the gym. Now however this just feels too draining, the mere thought of doing something physically exhausting is enough to make me not to.
I know these are all signs that something is happening from within. What I don't know if this only has something to do with myself that I haven't been able to resolve or if these signs are showing up in many others. I do not seek an excuse that this comes from without and I really do want to get back to "normal". But everyday I wake up and I am almost pissed off at myself for allowing me to have become this passive and lazy and non-motivated at every area in life. I really do struggle achieving the things I want to do but I often end up doing not much.
I would wish this would all change so that I can feel more happy about life again. Meditation does not help to find centeredness and clarity for some reason. I just end up feeling like there is a stormy sea inside of myself that is disrupting all balance and focus I used to have. I thought it was just something momentarily that would go away with time, but I've been like this for over a month now and I'm really starting to get worried.
I would like to be able to do all the things I enjoy without pushing myself to do them. Everyday it's the same, I have to drag myself to do the things I loved. Let's not talk about my work which is fine, but it feels now more than ever so hard to get up in the mornings with a positive attitude.
This is something that has started to affect others around me and they have started to notice I'm not the same. I don't want to be like this, but again there's like this huge feeling that I don't have the motivation to do anything. I feel at times I would just like to cease to exist (not suicidal or anything) but everything can feel so meaningless and I am so unsure what is causing me to feel this way.
If you have any solutions or suggestions what to do about this kind of state of being, what may be causing it I would really be grateful. And most of all be able to write this, it helps to get it off your chest just by writing and at least trying to put a finger on all the things that is troubling.
Namaste my friends.
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lots of shifts and changes.....i remember when i started going through this it felt like the sand was always slipping out from under my feet no matter how hard i tried to get my footing....... i liked what ara said about doing something you have not done before......i am going to learn to skateboard at the local skatepark and toying around with the idea of rockclimbing.......and i have started taking sculpt at the corepower yoga which was very difficult.....
i have been feeling like something has finished and has come to completion......like a cycle has ended.....and also another thing i have been feeling is it is weird and i am thinking it is either energy serg (sp) or feels like a seizure or a jolt (but i am not having one) and i am wondering if i am picking up on someone with epalepsie (Sp) around me....does anyone know what i am talking about?? i sometimes feel exausted from this process as it has taken me beyond the limits of myself through heaven and hell...;)
It could be that your higher self is pulling energy from you and stripping away (relatively) meaningless things, so that you won't be inadvertently led down a path that doesn't serve your highest good. Perhaps you are just subconsciously waiting to be inspired to do something really meaningful with your life. The same thing happened to me at that age. I didn't want to do anything at all with my life, until one day I was inspired to write a book.
Thank you all for your replies, it helps a great deal :). I'm starting to feel a little better allready. It was a beautiful day outside today and the first one in a week. I think weather also affects your mood. If it's cold,gray and rainy outside it's often how I'll end up feeling inside for some reason =P.
Soaking up some rays always helps! I'm heading out myself peace
Aye, the sun never fails to lift my spirit! I came home from Thailand during a two week vacation there just two weeks ago. Maybe the sudden change in climate (almost no sun and always cloudy back here) had a huge impact on me feeling this way.
Combined with a lot of other things going on in my life of course.
I guess it's just to ride along with the wave so to speak and try to enjoy every day as much as possible without putting up too high expectations on things to achieve like I have done lately. I guess also I'm a bit worried about the future, having a hard time setting up a vision for myself where I will be happy. Like a bigger goal to strive for, it's just like staring into a black hole, I cannot imagine what my future will be and I think that puts a lot of uneasiness inside of me.
Check out this info from Eagle Spirit Ministry
http://www.eaglespiritministry.com/teaching/texts/ascension.htm
Describes ascension symptoms
Here's a few sound similar to what you are experiencing
You don't feel like doing anything.You are in a rest period, 'rebooting'. Your body knows what it needs. In addition, when you begin reaching the higher realms, 'doing' and 'making things happen' becomes obsolete as the New energies support the feminine of basking, receiving, creating, self-care and nurturing. Ask the Universe to 'bring' you what you want while you are enjoying yourself and having fun.
When you try to do your usual routine and activities, it feels downright awful. You are evolving beyond what you used to be, and these people and surroundings no longer match your vibration. The New will soon arrive and feel so-o-o-o much better.
You are definitely not the only one feeling this way. Hang in there ride the wave
Peace
Ogdoo===you're experiencing the wobble of the earth on its axis....
this has a lot to do with the myths of all time..
the universe is a drama
and each one has their special part-
You want to discover the part you play in your dream--
what myth is your most cherrished heartfelt belief
that is your eternal quest you create it for yourself.
This quest often evolves from life to life
according to the precession of the equinoxs
and of course what we all seek is ananda
Its called ''Hormones''
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