This summer has been probably the worst summer I can remember. I am glad I only have 2 more weeks to fall! This summer I battled serious spiritual fustration, having a boss with a crappy aura and energy, did me no justice either, It just added to an a would be over flowing soup pot of ingrediants. 

After constant unsatisfactory, and verbal ethical demands, from every way. I ended up cursing out my star family one night about stuff that was neither here nor there, but in the end made sense from an earthling perspective. I expressed how they just watch me, and do nothing, and say nothing these days. I see them in the skies high up far enough it wouldn't effect airline traffic and they would ease close enough that no one would think anything of it; all I was able to do was look and shack my head.

All I was able to say telepathically was "We need to talk... Gosh, I had no idea how to address these beings cause I had no F**king clue who i was talking to! I was all confused and just like "F-it!" Especially when one has many past lives that doesn't help. Over the summer I spoke with a light worrior friend of mine I unleashed my wrath on him, too....accidently though. when he said their your family..... I was like Oooo you talking about the folks that play silent games? them?! and he said, "yesss....." but that yes was like an obiediant sadist yes. Everything up to that point almost  went out the window, I was like if "they" were my real family and a family I have no current memory of they wouldn't treat me like chopped liver, they retained more memory than me! In my past blogs I've spoken about my interactions with my star family, but everything kinda stopped cold turkey.... (I was a hot mess, this summer!) .

So that night I sent a general announcement out to whom ever. I let loose that sassy little sailor inside of me, and man it felt great at the moment. I don't regret any of what I said, because that was how I felt at the moment, I didn't wish them away or tell them to kiss my choclate butt, granted I almost did! I do feel like they want to talk to me, I am just not close to their frequency. I can't hear a thing unless they projected their voice loud enough that it scares me out of body. After I finished my crazy summer job, I meditated many times and cleaned myself up...I look back at this summer and laugh "omg!" I wish my community was more of an ashanti, full of love and laughter.