These past two weeks have been some of the hardest -between my degrading health and my dwindling spiritual strength. Ascension takes a lot of energy I guess. I have meditated a lot recently which has seemed to be great as far as spiritual ascension...except I find it hard to control my will power after and the Ego seems to then take over. It's like I am being split into two people and the human side of me has more strength. The spiritual side just wants to vibrate out of my skin. Also, after I meditate, the world seems very loud and obnoxious. In turn, that makes it difficult to tolerate my surroundings while my health is suffering. Is there any way to feel the universal love again? A sort of numbness just hangs inside of me now. I've never experienced this before.
Maybe I'm not doing the right meditation...?
No matter what, I will slowly pull myself out of this health hole!! I may be weak, but I am not misguided. It's just hard when I look in the mirror and see a pale, worn out, frail body -a ghost of what I used to be. May my soul and others' in kind find strength and balance in times of trouble.
breathe deep, seek peace
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You will regain your strength, it is darkest before the dawn.
Do you have a pet? Animals can offer us strength especially when we are affected by illness... cats are good therapy when a dog is too much responsibility. I would also look closely at the diet, I have found a new sensitivity to what I feed myself... sometimes all I can stand is green fresh food in small amounts with a lot of water or juice.
Good luck, wishing you strength and healing and happiness.