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Like ripples on a lake, the highs and lows surpass pattern-- they have become a rhythm

I'm noticing more and more that the "highs" and "lows" I keep experiencing are not merely a pattern, but an actual rhythm. Through life, I swoop low, then arc high, over and over and over again. My mood, my optimism, my progress... even as I note that I am seeing many signs, blessings ,and synchronicities,

Perpetual undulation.

I feel caught, stuck, between the extremes of duality. At the same time, I observe with increasing awareness as many signs and blessings come to me in life. I've continued to make improvements in a number of ways, but it's always one step forward, one step back, like an endless see-saw motion.

I'm starting to really wonder about this. That there must surely be something affecting me beyond the simple "things" in life that seem to illicit these responses. Is this a pattern I must break? Or am I riding a great wave?

There are times the pattern doesn't seem fitting, such as now. Such as in that so much good has happened to me recently, so much that I can no longer even try to deny the existence of a higher power-- something is clearly at work and working together with me... the low I feel just now doesn't seem... authentic. Not when I think about it objectively. I don't have a reason to feel like this. I have too much to be happy about.

Maybe I'm flickering back and forth between two dimensions. Two possible futures perhaps. Good or bad. Its so confusing.

Recent lessons will prove valuable in navigating this confusion. I welcome any feedback.

Its honestly like I just remembered the manic sine wave I've been living through is "just a ride" after all. It feels like a ride now. I feel... detached from my own heartache, right here in my chest. I don't even understand why I feel it anymore. I just undulate through duality endlessly, regardless of my experiences. Maybe I'm just starting to see through my prison. I can't figure it out, but I will.

Are others experiencing similar rhythms of high and low such as this? Even seemingly despite what is actually going on at times? I dare say it stands to reason that I am in tow or in step with something far bigger than my little bitty self. Can't make any other sense of it.

Ah well. Trust in the higher power has served me especially well in recent days. I know I'll be alright. I guess I just feel like I'm... taking a step "outside" of myself, to observe this strange pattern as I already observe the world. I am after all, the one thing I seem to have figured out the least... 

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Comment by Peter Panayiotis Karanikas on May 12, 2013 at 10:44am

You have an existence worth of lows to overcome.

So be excited by your lows.

See every low you go through as being one step closer to your eternal high.

It is inevitable.

Comment by Peter Panayiotis Karanikas on May 12, 2013 at 10:41am

Starseed Ikse,

good to see you again.

Once you give intent and climb up on the wave, just hold on tight because you're riding it all the way to the shore.

So make sure you're board is properly waxed and enjoy the ride.

the lows are just a catapult to a greater high.

Comment by Starseed Ikse on May 12, 2013 at 10:22am
Thank you, it's always good to know that I'm not alone in what I'm going through. As I observe myself, it seems so... strange to me. Ann, the way you put that was very helpful. I can see exactly what you mean. I forget sometimes that I am struggling against my ego as well. I still have such a bad habit of focusing outwardly, instead of inwardly.
Comment by Ann on May 11, 2013 at 1:21am

You've described the process to a tee.  ;)  I have come to view these moments of anxiety and doubt as attempts by my ego consciousness to derail the ascension.  I see my ego as a small child who has been calling the shots and is now feeling threatened by older siblings (the more aware selves) who are now in charge.  It thinks that it is it's job to know everything and is loath to just relax and let itself be guided along a much easier and more rewarding path. I have come to treat my ego gently as I would a toddler; I recognize it's concern and then do as I am guided and things just move along smoothly.  I have found now that my toddler self has realized that it is better this way and it has accepted the new role of "boots on the ground".  It does the things that need to be done on the physical level, and is leaving the navigating to the "one in the crows nest"  ~Namaste~  

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