A short true story.....
I had a friend whose loaf of bread had gotten moldy and the green growth on the slice of bread she took out of the bag looked like the face of Jesus, I mean it really really looked like the stereotypical Jesus...the face was like a painting all in green. When she pulled that piece of moldy bread out of the bag to make us some sandwiches she was dancing up and down like an idiot and crying tears of absolute joy and I sat there just wondering if she had gone insane....She said she had asked God for a sign because she was losing faith in God and Jesus and being raised as a Baptist she was really feeling guilty that she had lost faith, so she had been praying for days for a sign that God and Jesus existed and she believed that moldy bread was a sign from God himself. After seeing this jesus- faced piece of moldy bread it somehow changed her whole life for the better because she was positive that God was speaking to her and she was so much, much happier in life and she was filled with love and treated everyone so much better....it was amazing to me...I thought she was completely wonkers and told her so....She told me that it was HER miracle, that God had communicated to her that she had to have faith in Jesus... and who was I to tell her different. I got thinking about that today when replying to a post.
That really made me do some serious thinking about my own actions and about the needs of people to believe in something and how deep a faith can go and how it can impact a person's whole life, and I realized that believing in something is not a bad thing and it actually can change peoples lives for the better, even believing in things that make no sense to me or seem unreal to me like my best friend seeing a sign from God in a piece of moldy bread....If people read something and it fills them full of hope it is like a feel good drug, and makes them feel better, I cannot do anything about that even if I think their faith is unfounded or not realistic or just plain untrue, and actually it is not my job to be a miracle monitor, lol. People are entitled to what they see as miracles in their lives and I realize that it is not my place or duty to point out that I think they are wrong in their beliefs, it is an individual thing and none of my business. Took me a long time to realize this. I just remembered about my friend with the moldy Jesus bread and did some soul searching and this blog is the result of my reminiscing...I just felt the need to share this, even if it might make some people angry. Making people angry at me is nothing new to me, and I survive it somehow, lol.
I will continue to point out my viewpoint of what seems to be reality for me, because I feel the need to have people hearing the truth and not what I perceive as deception, but I should not criticize those that want to believe things that make them feel hopeful and uplifted because it is their choice what they believe and what those beliefs fulfills in their lives. I think that it is wrong to mislead people intentionally as many posts and channelings do but it is not my place to criticize people for believing things that to me seem like untruths. I agree that a lot of the postings on this and other sites are like dangling carrots just out of reach, which seems unfair and like manipulation and just plain falseness to me. But for those that believe and see things the same way as the posters of such writings, it is a food that seems to sustain them, so I cannot and should not make judgements. I have to fight the need to criticize because it does not help anything at all and changes nothing, people believe what they believe, a feeling in their heart or soul. I have to remind myself of the serenity prayer at all times. Some things I simply cannot change things, I have to realize this and go on my way to do what I can to make this a better world in whatever small way I can, and not try to fix people who I think need fixing who don't want to be fixed and are perfectly comfortable in their viewpoints and faiths. I should just concern myself with what I contribute to life myself.
It takes courage to commit to have faith in something without tangible proof of their belief. I actually wish I could have blind faith and truly believe in something that uplifts me and makes me feel warm inside, but blind faith can damage people sometimes too and make them vulnerable to being manipulated and used and lead astray like lambs to slaughter sometimes, which is why I worry so much for others who i think believe things that are untrue, but I cannot change anyone's faith in things, it has to come from their hearts alone. No one's words or criticisms or insults of other's beliefs is going change anything at all, only separates and draws people apart. I often wish that I had real heartfelt faith in something intangible but it is just not in my makeup I guess...Always been a realist, always will be.....but am I any better off than someone who has high and lofty hopes and unflapable faith in what they believe, I don't think so. I wish I had beliefs that bouy me up and make me feel optimistic for the future and feel good inside, I truly do, but alas I guess I just don't know how.
Thank you for listening to me....