To try and go along

This narrow path

Ride the wave

While holding no more doubt

There will come a time

I’ll come to you out of love

These fears and base urges

Remnants of former self

Will melt away

As the body becomes light

Scatter away

My soul will embodied the stars

Scatter my wishes with this brilliance

As the sun shines upon this green Earth

I will be rejuvenated

By divine love

Stay with me

As I prepare

For this journey

Together we will

Transform this world

Into a place of love

Unifying all the polar opposites

Wholeness will come

When love becomes us

I will carry this message

Erase my doubts

Overcome my fears

Until I can meet you

And we can go on

As we’ve always

In love and peace

Let them know of peace

As they move through this night

That they may emerge

From their emotional turmoils

And learn of divine forgiveness and light

Let them not turn to violence

Let them not deny, ignore, or belittle

Show them that mercy and compassion

Are possible paths of transformation

May they progress to their higher selves

And aid in the progression

Of their fallen sisters and brothers

As night stretches across the skies

After all that was done

I’m left here

Begging to God

To help me

How am I going to get through this

I gotta get through this

Your honeyed words

Does nothing to quench

These raging emotions
Let me feel what I need to feel

Breathing out

Flowing out is sporadic rationality

Don’t preach to me

What I must do

Patience and forgiveness

Is not for them it’s for me

Every time a blow is dealt

And the sharpened tongue

Draws emotional wounds

This night is not merely external

As I am brought down

From all that I’m feeling

Saying a prayer to myself

Let me allow peace into my mind

As I rejoice in the blessings so far

Even though some choose to act as such

I am not against them

Not responding with hate

As I am faraway from it

But I don’t want to ignore

These obvious flaws

My reality needs to change

There are some things

I will and should not allow

To fade my world

Blur my path

You may say that anger is negative

Sadness is negative

But to deny is to fabricate them

Constructs of this world

That only want to preach of light

When you are so far into the night

Deep in the thicket of this midnight

I am finding my way

Every shadow in light and light in every shadow

I don’t need you to judge me

Tell me what to do

I trust myself to know

My heavy burdened mind

Plunges my spirit into this last bit of ego

If I’m mistaken I take my responsibility

Yet I will not face

These battles outside

For your benefit

I am not your conduit of self-hate

I will not be a standing mirror

While you lash at yourself

I am not going to take

This cross you’ve given me

So in the future, please don’t say

That this is something more than what it is

It’s a matter of accountability

Of truth of what is wrong

In this diseased relationship

After every high point, there comes a low point. I had an outrageous and almost electric argument with one of my family member. I was so hurt and not angry only extremely sad. It was over something stupid, but the argument point out as so many arguments have pointed out to me. It just hurt so bad that I needed to draw on the power of God. I wanted to keep myself from shaking and every memory of argument just flooded my spirit. When we argue with someone close to us it always a very painful experience. After the terrible storm, there comes a serenity. Usually, I would have reacted differently and while I handle it better than before I still have a long ways to go. I guess I have extreme karma with this person. I just wanted to understand what was the real problem. We project out to the world and sometimes an individual like me acts as a mirror. I don't know what it is about me that brings this about, but perhaps I transmute the negativity eventually into positivity. Basically, my brother was pointing out and attacking my character. When someone does this to us it's usually that they see the flaw in themselves. They are using you as a mirror for their troubles. For me being on the receiving end, I was quite hurt. It shouldn't have escalated to that level of negativity which leads me to believe that I've regressed, but I prayed long and hard. I prayed God to just hold these feelings for a moment while I collect myself. I know that this was an opportunity for me to see. I saw too many things to write. It may feel sometimes that we've regressed by the way we handle our daily life. As for me, it was truly eye opening. I'm still hurting, but I will be okay. I will walk in the valley even if the water rises above my head. This is one of those moment where faith can really just move you along. From my experience, it hurts so bad because of the karmic relationship dissolving. I didn't want to assign blame or victimized myself. I wanted to get deep down where all the negativity was coming from. I haven't found the source and I can tell you that even as I type this, this calmness that I feel is with great work with the Source. I can't do this by myself and we shouldn't try to. If this happens to you find your power, walk away from the hurt, let it go, and have faith in the workings of the universe.

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Some people tend to get so preachy with this stuff. Okay, somethings need to be felt and dealt with. Perhaps this person is reflecting me as I was. Regardless there are some lessons that we as individual have to learn by ourselves. We should not interfere in this case though we may want to. I've spent all my life dealing with the person about matters and each time I've been on the receiving end of seemingly irrational attacks that have nothing to do with the situation at hand. I try to chew these events over and over and I'm not going to take it anymore. I am not going out of anger or sadness. Merely I am putting my foot down for what is acceptable and not for me. I will not and should not have to subject myself to this kind of lashing. This person merely uses me and then drains me of my positivity then the next day I see them they act as if nothing has happen. They unleash their fears and anger on me, doing as they please and not caring if I am hurting or not, while every chance I get I have tried to see why and understand their perspective. I am tired of trying to see the point to their actions. In life, we will be met with such opposition. I wish him the best I really do, but I will not have my life going this way anymore and maybe this time this argument has brought to my attention that a little self-esteem is overdue and the way we were carrying on is not right. We want to spread peace and love I get it. I get the idea of advancing consciousness, but this is the shadow. The shadow that needs to be dealt with. You cannot ignore the actions of another when it is detrimental to your growth and theirs. I have no retaliation and been looking inwards to see. I will not remain apathetic about these things nor paint them as something they're not. There's a reality that needs to be change and I will do my best to change it.

After upheaval

My sense of urgency

Lifted from my mind

And the foggy vision

Has come to shape

Before me the new age

Stepping forward

Bring the trials

I have no fear

Even in temporary lapses

Of heavy regression

I will pursue truth

Beyond this limited reality

Expand the perception

Into the all knowing light

All encompassing love

I will carry this message

Holding firmly to simple dreams

My wish of peace will be brought

Each challenge is met

Confront eye to eye

My eyes will no longer avert

The blinding light will usher us

Knowingly or not

Racing towards the brand new horizon

What bliss awaits for the soul looking inward

I seek and will find

Think and manifest will become one in the same

I trust that I know what to do

Flood the thirsty world

With spiritual elixir

The collaborative conscious

Will return us to our origin

Rebirth is near

Steadfast, ride this wave

Until you can see for yourself

The distant joy is approaching

Open your hearts and reach

Willfully grasp the higher self

Ever so higher

Climb higher

To the god head

With peaceful reign

It will come

I’m sure this brand new world

It's not really a blog, but I am just trying to creatively move away from this negativity I am feeling.

Cut through me

Though my heart is beating

I’ve stepped out of body

For a while I stayed

Caught up in the pain

Clench my fist

Grit my teeth

I’ll do whatever it takes

I will get through this

Even if I think I can’t

It just has to be so

You haven’t won

Thinking you’ve drained me

Of love and normalcy

I will rise again

Until I can grasp firmly

The light with both hands

There’s a time in life

When we choose someone else or us

And when the moment comes

Running, leaping, choose you

Don’t ever let someone

Drag you down

Remember that you are strong

Your pain is valid

But walk away when you can

It’s not a matter of pride

No a matter of blame

Or self depreciation

See through the core

Don’t let it control you

If the temporary pain

Leaves you without air

Never submit to the troubles

Brewing deep within

Furrow your brows

Cry loudly, but after shedding tears

You will come to see

That through this trial

You will come out

With the breath of new life

While I'm still riding high on this writing wave, I will just address mindful thoughts and actions a little bit. I'll be skimming the surface, but I assure you that information will come to you in totality from various different sources. Anyways, I started noticing that my thoughts were either matching up with what was happening in my environment or that I was attracting it somehow. I don't know about the human power of will manifesting situations or even bringing various people; however, it cannot go without saying that our thoughts are quite powerful sometimes it rivals our actions. At this point in time, I stress that we all could benefit from mindful thoughts and actions. Basically, I'm just saying be careful what you wish for because chances are it will come true during this time. Perhaps the planets are lining up or something. I don't really know. All I know is that the test is becoming more intense and that our thought forms are running wild. If I liken this to the weird weather patterns it kind of rings true. Though I don't know the weather could be jacked up from us.

We are coming towards a time where I guess the shift is becoming more prominent. How do I know this? From what I can see in my immediate environment and the people especially my family. They are all being brought situations that are testing them emotional, mentally, and what not. I can see the changes in their personalities and even some of them are now moving at a quicker pace into a positive and kind of spiritual tone. I don't know what it is for sure. Though the new energies coming our way are really prominent in people now or at least the people around me. They are all basically either embracing or scrambling because they are resisting. I advised those I know that their thoughts are important and powerful so they should be more aware of what they project. The universe's mirror is getting a work out with reflecting things that we need to push us ahead. If you haven't been moving at a fast pace before you will now. Time just seems to really fly sometimes or be normal pace. I don't think there will be a dull moment now. Also, if you haven't worked on certain scars or issues they will crop up. Probably with great intensity and repeatedly until you accept and grow. I urge you to keep at it and hold on tight. It will be a bumpy ride, but fun nonetheless. :)

I've been thinking about this topic for some time. It's very touchy because there's not a lot of information out there and in anything vague like this there are those exclaiming either it is impossible for twin flames to be same sex and such such...I would like to say that first twin flame relationships are not solely based on sex. It is not sexual gratification because twin flame relationships are consider a powerful spiritual union that often happens to serve a higher purpose. People say it occurs between the masculine energies and feminine energies. It's the union of the dual forces so to them obviously it should only be between male and female pairs, but that is not the case. A female can have a prominent masculine aspect to her and a male can have prominent feminine aspects. When we are talking about spirits we aren't tied to the physical gender of the body. When we hear masculine and feminine, we tend to push our own stereotypes on them based on gender roles of society. It isn't fair to say that it is impossible that twin flame to be same sex. It comes from old ways of thinking that only hampers the collective forward effort happening at this time. Spirit has no gender as it is energy. It is entirely possible for a person to enter this physical plane as one gender or the other and their pair maybe the same gender. Perhaps they had lessons they needed to learn as one gender and not the other. I don't see why that would be problem other than the lesson they would have to learn and overcome because of the society they live in that might be against a pairing of same sex. How I see it when it comes to pairing, either one of the two may take on the masculine or feminine aspect. I believe they switch back and forth considering they are whole spirits and not just half.

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Another thing people don't understand is that twin flame relationship isn't about fulfilling you and making you whole. Otherwise you'll just enter in another karmic relationship in order to learn what you need to be able to be the whole person. If you imagine we all carry both aspects to varying degrees within us. We reflect the dual things within this universe so it's not we need a twin flame to complete us rather we are coming together for a higher purpose such as raising love in the universe. It's a shame a lot of people think that everything will be better once their twin comes into their life. You first need to understand yourself and come to an understanding of love before you can come together with your twin.  It will not be a romantic fairy tale and it won't be about just the two of you, but how the two of you are in relation to the universal scheme.

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I also think that soul mate relationships are not always lovey dovey. They can be quite taxing because they make us grow. Some of us will spend our whole life here with a soulmate while others may just pass by so many until the lesson they are meant to learn are learned. Whichever emotional extreme these soul mate relationship take us, ultimately they are to make us grow until we can reach a place where we are one with the Source. Soul mate relationships don't even have to be romantic they could be platonic, sibling, parental, etc...

Oh people run wild with this topic. Homosexuality serves a purpose that at this time we can't really identify. People who are made nauseous by this and have their hand to their ears when this topic comes up are usually afraid if not in denial about some parts of themselves. It's strange the importance we place on what other people do with their lives. Obviously it must serve some purpose and it's here to stay. The argument of reproduction to support the claim that it is unnatural is kind of childish to me. We as beings whether homosexual or not create constantly. We have thoughts, feelings, and actions that create whatever. I don't see why offspring has to be a sign of whether something is normal or not. What about in vitro fertilization....?

It's time now that we come together to support other people. I may not agree with people all the time, but I don't attack them nor do I make their lives a living hell. It just makes for a hostile and gross kind of world. We are moving towards a world with an emphasis on spirit rather than material/physical aspects. I'm not saying those aren't important, but we probably have better things to do then to decide what's normal and abnormal especially if we are going to raise so much negativity about what we deem abnormal. It's so counterproductive.

When you are secure with who you are

It doesn’t matter what others’ choose to do with their lives

It keeps you busy with your own issues

Eventually you’ll be content with what it is you have

You don’t need to really bother with other people

They don’t need you to fix them

They don’t need your quest for rightness

When you come to an issue

With the mindset of right and wrong

You are usually in the wrong

You are wrong because you are coming not to seek solution
You are coming to an issue to feed your ego

This is misleading since group meetings

Are sought to bring solutions to problems

This makes the whole situation counterproductive

When you balance your mind with your heart

The irrational and rational need not matter

When you try to apply mind to a heart matter

You will end up frustrated and at odds with one another

Heart matters deal with all those things that moves our heart

The mind can’t reason heart matters

Your heart tries to understand emotions and spirit

Your mind tries to dissect everything into black or white

When you are handed a gray issue

Using your mind alone leads to different forms of violence

When you know yourself, your aren’t mind dominated

You will work to balance all aspects of yourself

Only then when you come together will you be productive

Until recently, I had not had a period for so long. I know too much information, but just keep reading. Losing your cycle can be a scary thing if you factor out pregnancy or disease. A woman's cycle is very important to her health not just physically. All aspects of a woman can be traced to her womb. Women often dread pms or their period, but with its absence it becomes all too clear. Your cycle is indeed more of a blessing than a curse.

I was going through a strange time. I was working many things out on different levels while attending to my daily life. I think that a woman's cycle can be tied to her spiritual development. When your cycle doesn't happen something is wrong with the energy of your body. You aren't releasing stagnant energy from your womb. This could be emotional blockages as well as physical blockages. When there is emotional strain (stress) you may not know it or realize, but your body always reflects what's going on. Every system in your body including your womb tells you what you need to pay attention to. Until you work out those problems, your body will not operate as it should.

It's just my little insight. When we are working on ourselves, we should not forget what the physical body tells us. Often our body let's us know what it needs. I wasn't too alarm when my period went missing and assumed it will return when I balance myself again. Sure enough, when I started confronting my withheld negativity and change my way of thinking it returned. In life, we can easily get caught in a tangle web of misery which vibrates from inside us to all parts of us. These kinds of things should be treated with the same care as a disease of a physical source. The disease in the mind can be very powerful enough to develop into actual symptoms. Listen to the whole of your being, it will tell you what you need and what you should do.