i have been reluctant to share this memory since it's open to be critised!

i remember being one of three boys in a previouse lifetime, i know these three boys because we meet up i EVERY single lifetime we are drawn to each-other one way or another each and every time and we drive eachother insane at times

each one is different in their own way, Ry__ is the dark energy, he has lots of light inside of him but in time's of war or need he is the one that is relied on to use and have easier access to the darker arts for the right reasons only!
he is stubbern and up himself and over confident, but when in a fight he's the first to jump in and always got you back

there is Ch___ who is held back and quiet, he is the light of us 3, he is kind and caring and full of compassion and love he holds us three together by keeping me and Ry___ tame and under control,if need be he can lash a mighty rath but doesn't like to unless completly neccisary, he is a big boy varely built, and sturdy

i am the grey of us 3, i can handle both the dark and light arts and offer wisdome and courage, we don't have a leader since i hold us together by challenging Ry___ and keeping him fit and alert and interested so he doesn't get into any trouble, i am calm, a warrior, and will face an openant only when neccisary!

Ry___ plays his part by keeping us witty and strong and dependant and reminding us that when it is time for war and when we should be standing to fight,keeps us calm when we loose the plot and helps guide us in those means

Ch____ plays his part by reminding us 3 to take the time to love and show mercy, and that not every battle need to be one with violence yet when neccisary to make sure your blow counts!

he keeps me and Ry___ under key and make's sure things don't ever get to out of hand, although we still have marks on each others bodie's from the last lifetime where we ended up in intensive car or first aid tent more the point more often than we should of been, but very fast healers

I Ashley play my part by reminding us 3 that we can do and be all of these things and that some parts of life and magic and spiritual aren't always as black and white as we think, for example hell hounds aren't dark, they are just serving a purpose and don't fall to either side unless summonded to do so!

i keep Ry___ on his toes and Remind Ch____ that we do need to fight and stand up for ourselve's but we don't need to loose who we are to do so

the last memory i have us together in battle was against a dark wizzard who went by the name Razoroth, he was a good man but saw only the dark things that happened in this world and didn't take the time to see the love and compassion around, so he thought by enslaving us all he could keep control and cause peace!

he got power hungry and out of control, at this time it was a green field but not like a perfect one, there where dirt patche's and rocks and tree's around us, it was a face off and with us 3 and our books (dark, light and grey books) we thought we destroyed him!

later on in life we found he was not destroyed but instead cast away stuck in a realm in the form he chose to be a dragon sealed away, now he goe's by the name Lazeroth keeper of the orb and lure's unsuspecting victoms into thier death and has sworn to kill off all man kind!

occasionly you will come accross a follower who believe's in thier heart that lazeroth has possesed them, and that he has givin them great power!

these people are basically his puppets and before they can reveal him to his full awareness they are killed, he cannot be noticed just yet or he might be destroyed for good!

i believe i have connected with my dragon, i had a vission that felt like a daydream of me flying on a dragons back and it felt natural and through the clouds and all over australia's bushland, it felt very much real and i can still feel the scale's on my legs and the breeze in my hair , then i connected with him, he said hello and i freaked a little bit then he said his name was draco

i thought draco had a rider already, i mean i don't think i'm THAT important to this cause!

from my understanding draco is the one who him and his rider will essentially lead on several more in battle, the one who guids us and his rider inspire's thousands and helps many more!

i did not think that my jounrey would be so important to everything!

i don't know if this is my dragon or not, i think i need help understanding it all!

i've grown up with some rough people, people that you wouldn't want to live near!

i grew up being bullied sevearly to the point where if i cried infront of them or even shown a shed of them getting to me the punishment would be worse!

i've found that i have only cried four time's since i was 11, the first was when i was raped at 17, lost my virginity to that bastard!

2nd: was when i broke down, i took my little brother to a party and the owner of the house sexually assulted my lil bro and i broke down because my only job is protect him from that kind of stuff!

the 3rd: was in the arms of a girlfriend, i felt week and sad, embarresed even, like it was wrong for me to do it!

the 4th was when my ex died and i could only cry for 20 min before i had to be strong again!

allot of people say that men don't cry or real men don't cry, to be honest there are nights where i honestly wish i could, i've been put through so much hell that i litraly am un-able to cry anymore, unless it's in the arms of somebody i intend the rest of my life with!!!

i recently got back with my ex girlfriend, a girl i'd happily spend the rest of my days with and she feels the same

she is pregnant with twins, but they are rape babie's

now i'm looking at being a father to 2 beautiful baby girls

i feel petrafied and happy at the same time

but seriously me, an aspi with 2 girls huh

when they hit 12 i start going fishing once a month for a week lol

i'm going ot have to fight to get out of diper duty O.O

what do you guys think?

i am not all that common to talking to the angels, i have spoken with micheal but it's not really talking as such, they leave signs, could be a flash of light it could be the radio tuning into a certain song by itself but i have many protectors looking over me :)

i appreciate the thought and felt allot of new presence around the time of the cyclone and i am aware that many where from this site!

this world, this life even is a strange sence of reality where not everything has to make sence and if it does often i'm not allowed to speak of it or many things for that matter!

i sincerly hope that you and many others on this site remember that anything is possible, these rule's and boundrie's are only set by the means of our own minds!

i'm in townsville, well 30k out of the city

i honestly believe that not all of this is natural, i honestly think the war has begun on a wider scale!

i'm not sure what to think maybe i'll survive or maybe it's my time to leave this earth

i sincerly hope it all goes well and nothing happens, however i'm not completly nieve

i'd be stupid not to admit i'm a little scared of the possibilitie's of this severety of cyclone being a catagory 5 when it hits us tommorrow night!

either way i'm going to have to strap down get comfy and hope that i can do my best to stay alive but damage will happen!

we may even flood who know's

what i do know is that by every last full moon i accend to a new ability to learn and control and the last being water and the first air who know's but it seems like a coincidence that doesn't seem anything less than fate!

my control over fire is only based on candle light and small fire's during the day, but easier during the night

it sucks because i have to stay below the radar so i don't get noticed!

i accended again today, this time taking basic control over water eliment, in wich i was in the shower the one place i thought to be sacred lol

first FREEZING COLD, THEN BOILIGN HOT, then the shower went straight into my face so i had to divurt the splashe's towards the ground best i could but the water was so strong and full on, i couldn't reach the taps so i had to try and control the temperature of the shower using my ability, it sucked at first but hey if you have to learn something i gues there's no quicker way

the only thing that worrie's me is the reason as to why that needed to awaken!

now i have the idea that some things that people consider to be myth may actually exist beyond the curtains that blind us!

i'm curiouse as to what creature's people have experienced encounters with?

so far i'm aware of the existance of the dragon race!

i predicted the brisbane floods not that long ago, and with it i predicted the begining of something horrible, the begining of what many people call allot of things but i do not wish to label it for the fear of getting false facts and media complecating the mix!

however with it i also fear my prediction of a mas cyclone through darwin that is yet to possibly happen?

i don't suppose anybody could shed some light?

i had a base prophecy come to me during one evening, it said quiet clearly:

when the crow crosses over the bridge from the sunset it will begin!

i have no idea what it means!

i recently encountered that what i thought to be nothing more than myth and legend to become something more real!

i know of the ancient marie (forgive the spelling) goddess, now i thought she might be the re-encarnation of this godess but wasn't sure until the other day she was talking to me and i flashed on it, like a vission but this was different, as clear as day she was talking to me about gossip while wearing the godess warrior out-fit, now apart from the family and some very hard to find books kept hidden away nobody else has ever seen this out-fit!

i have had many different visions and many different things in wich i'll explain seperatly through my blogs

i have dreamt of this girl since i was 6 years old, so as you can imagine the surprise i recieved when i realised she was as real as ever and loves me, now this also means that if she is infact real and this is all true then she may fight beside' me in battle when it come's time!

your thoughts are welcome?

i don't know about anybody on here but i can feel and sence something big coming, i am actually led to believe that when it happens the gateway between what people consider the real world and the spiritual world around us will become one and people will be able to openly see the magic comunity for what it is!

on the other hand it won't last long since the magical comunity of this world will go back to legend and myth before you know it, there not here to be noticed or to control anything other than the balance in this world, then when everything is safe and the earth is no longer sick and the animals come back they shall go back to hiding thier true form and converse into society once more!

but nothing will ever be the same again!

it's difficult enough living life when bad things happen, but to add the pressure of being hunted by dark spirits being the balance between light and dark itself, knowing the boundry enough to not slip into dark matters

hell if the dark half of me gets a strong enough grip then who know's what is going to happen,

all i know is there is more power laying dormant trying to push it's way out of me than anything i've ever felt, and i know some very powerful witche's and many of different spiritual backgrounds!

i need help to release this power in a good way, allow it to flow naturally yet un-noticed so it can have an outlet and release of pressure and so can i, i gues all in all i need an elder to help me spiritually learn the ways of such arts!

maybe the dark will back off when they no longer think i'm a threat and when they think i no longer contain power since my energy is being shielded from being sensed it shouldn't be long but it sucks

i've already had a traser storm go past, it was hell, hours of no power and shocking heat, intense thirst and darkness everywhere, dark spirits of all age's and all sorts of betraying innocence speaking to me trying to get me to to talk or let them know something!

it is tiring at best and even worse i couldn't even summon a basic breeze, the first element i learnt control over with the power inside my soul!

i pray that no-one should ever have to face a night like that because honestly they made me feel like i was about to drop to my knee's and beg for death, now i'm a strong person and have a strong soul, but that was torture!

maybe the light will shine brighter in my future, or maybe i'm just that big of a threat wich means there getting desperate!

in any case by the feel of it, something big is coming, something powerful and something bad, maybe 2012 maybe not, all i know is that when hell breaks loose and the world we know today is long gone, i'll still be standing for what is right and moral!

ok, now on here i've spoken about many things and some things if not all things so far have been relatively easy topics, all i simply wanted so far has been a light view on things to help me understand or make decisions or just out of curiousity

this is different!

this matter is one that has to be handled delicatly yet is of the most vigerouse of injustice in my books!

now my little brother and his girlfriend moved out of home to try and survive together as a couple, our family was moving interstate so they figured the would give it a try while under her mothers roof with friends around for support and a good structure

well for reasons that aren't important the house-hold is un-bearable to live in

now there moving here in townsville flights payed for not going back and all seemed well and good up until the mother started having diffulctie's letting go of the daughter,

in wich case my lil bro is getting abused for leaving the house and both are under house arrest,  wich is bareable, she has to look after her sisters kid for babysitting wich again is ok, but the daughter (my lil bro's girl) has been brought up to obay her mother, she is 18 years old and quiet a mature well clue'd on down to earth girl who is more than capable of living in almost any situation carefully and well!

it is now a week before they get here and the mother has a theory that because my lil bro and his un-official sister (who is one of my closest friends, i would consider family but i've slept with her so that would be kinda messed up) is so close that this girl wants to try and break them up to be with my lil bro (wich is far from the case, they are both repulsed by the idea since they are so close!) in wich means that this girl wasn't allowed to go to the farewell party (wich was fine since it was at the mothers house), now she's gone further by saying that they aren't allowed to go to this girls B'day dinner (not even a late one) and my lil bro isn't even her kid so really not much right's to it AND they leave 6am the next morning on a flight so really what's the worst she's going to do?, kick them out lol

i don't even think that the mother is going to happy about this girl being at the airport to see them off!

now so far my little brother is just simply jumping through hoops till the day he gets to leave and i really have no real say in the matter nor really have to care at all, other than the daughter has been my closest friend for many years now and we where pretty much brother and sister before my lil brother started dating her!

this is where the problem begins (now i know there's allot of history but to understand my problem you need to know the basics of the situation) my parents have decided to give both my lil brother and his girlfriend and me a fighting chance in life by offering to rent us out thier house in adelaide, it would be a great chance to be on our own and i'm only going to be there a year or two, long enough to find my own way in life and get out there in the real world, there offering it to us for $100 per person who live's there and only me and her and lil bro are suppose to be allowed

now the mother has decided to take her daughters kid AND her youngest (10 y/old boy) to live in adelaide aswell, if this happens then the mothers daughters kid's father (i hope you can keep up people i'm sorry lol) wants to go and he is a friend of ours close, because he will follow his child to be with him to raise him!

now that's fine so now it's me lil bro his mrs and our mate in the house tops 4 bedroom place until he's on his feet and leave's wich is fine

but NOW my lil brothers girlfriends mother wants to move into the adelaide house with us with her daughters kid and her own son for 2 months until she can find a place to live, now even up until recently i was weary about the mother not wanting to leave or refusing and then taking over the house-hold and being top mum all over again!

so my question is what do you think i should do?

it's such a hard thing to deal with!

as until just now when i learnt of what's going on in that house there i was bareable to the idea but now i stricktly refuse to have the mother there AT ALL!

am i such a dick for doing that though?

ow and the mother has taken away all my lil bro's money and his g/f's money so they can survive once thier here, but i know they arent' getting that money back because the mother doesn't want her to leave!

now since my lil brother and this girl are so close and so in-love i dare say there going to get married sooner or later, by the looks of it only a matter of time, so then that make's this woman (the mother) mother in law :/

so that take's away allot of say i have in the matter because everybody's trying to tred carefully, in all honesty i just said if she isn't out i'm calling the cops but hey aparently i'm not suppose to do that either!

i really need your opinions on this matter people! HELP :/

it's an emotion i never fully understood, this girl has said she love's me, but we've never met, is this at all possible?