it's difficult enough living life when bad things happen, but to add the pressure of being hunted by dark spirits being the balance between light and dark itself, knowing the boundry enough to not slip into dark matters

hell if the dark half of me gets a strong enough grip then who know's what is going to happen,

all i know is there is more power laying dormant trying to push it's way out of me than anything i've ever felt, and i know some very powerful witche's and many of different spiritual backgrounds!

i need help to release this power in a good way, allow it to flow naturally yet un-noticed so it can have an outlet and release of pressure and so can i, i gues all in all i need an elder to help me spiritually learn the ways of such arts!

maybe the dark will back off when they no longer think i'm a threat and when they think i no longer contain power since my energy is being shielded from being sensed it shouldn't be long but it sucks

i've already had a traser storm go past, it was hell, hours of no power and shocking heat, intense thirst and darkness everywhere, dark spirits of all age's and all sorts of betraying innocence speaking to me trying to get me to to talk or let them know something!

it is tiring at best and even worse i couldn't even summon a basic breeze, the first element i learnt control over with the power inside my soul!

i pray that no-one should ever have to face a night like that because honestly they made me feel like i was about to drop to my knee's and beg for death, now i'm a strong person and have a strong soul, but that was torture!

maybe the light will shine brighter in my future, or maybe i'm just that big of a threat wich means there getting desperate!

in any case by the feel of it, something big is coming, something powerful and something bad, maybe 2012 maybe not, all i know is that when hell breaks loose and the world we know today is long gone, i'll still be standing for what is right and moral!