i've grown up with some rough people, people that you wouldn't want to live near!
i grew up being bullied sevearly to the point where if i cried infront of them or even shown a shed of them getting to me the punishment would be worse!
i've found that i have only cried four time's since i was 11, the first was when i was raped at 17, lost my virginity to that bastard!
2nd: was when i broke down, i took my little brother to a party and the owner of the house sexually assulted my lil bro and i broke down because my only job is protect him from that kind of stuff!
the 3rd: was in the arms of a girlfriend, i felt week and sad, embarresed even, like it was wrong for me to do it!
the 4th was when my ex died and i could only cry for 20 min before i had to be strong again!
allot of people say that men don't cry or real men don't cry, to be honest there are nights where i honestly wish i could, i've been put through so much hell that i litraly am un-able to cry anymore, unless it's in the arms of somebody i intend the rest of my life with!!!
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My poor dear, I am so sorry you've had to experience so much suffering, one can only hope that your spiritual evolvement somehow compensates for the cruelty you have experienced. You seem like a very compassionate and smart man... but even if the physical act of crying is not occuring that does not mean that your soul is not drenched in tears, especially knowing as you do, personal suffering, to see it happen to another... it is a question of survival because if you thought about it too deeply you just wouldn't recover and would drown in tears of compassion.
So, you learn to "suck it up" because you have to get up every day, go to work, survive and be a decent citizen... no time for tears... but I promise you... I PINKY SWEAR ... that you have been heard, that your moments of suffering were noted and that no longer will anyone have to suffer in silence again. The big deal about the March Equinox is that the Mother Energy (Shekinah) that has been missing on this planet, is returning- yay! Too long have we suffered under MALE domination, now we will have balance for the first time in millenia. Isn't that exciting? It means that suddenly hardened men are going break into tears, they are going to find compassion, they are going to experience the Divine Feminine that has been lost all these eons... I found this posting it may help a bit: It's from Shekina Speaks.com - It's long but you may like it anyway :) Much Love and wishing you all the best, you are incredibly strong, there isn't much more time left, you can do it :)
Ascension Symptoms, Tools and Revelations
Wanting to cry for no reason
Feeling extra vulnerable even when you are in familiar settings. Take care and nurture yourself. This is part of your ascension process as you are allowing parts of your true nature to emerge.
Headaches
Your pineal and pituitary glands are receiving more light frequency which creates more connections in the mind to the divine mind; there is pressure and releasing in the body when this happens. Take both hands, fingertips at the center of your forehead, and with light pressure pull fingers apart to your temples. Repeat. Drinking more water, e.g. spring water, which is of higher life essence, will assist.
Throat issues
Phlegm in your throat, sinus issues and coughing
You, the Blue Ray and many light bearers, are here to express the will of God though the expression of the sacred divine feminine. As your spirit speaks another language of light, unity and nature, communicating on the earth realm has been challenging. Speaking with words may have taken your whole life to do and you may still be working on this. This area of the throat chakra is being rejuvenated and purified to a higher communion with your I Am presence and Creator. Your voice and expression of God is being recalibrated at a frequency that is in divine alignment with your true essence.
The situation may call for you now to speak up, write, channel and express your self through the power of your being and the light of the sacred divine feminine.
Solar plexus anxiety and releasing
The solar plexus is being cleared, aligned and balanced to reestablishing your divine power. We see your solar plexuses are full of energies as is earth and there is a huge release occurring at this time. This release is assisting you to be more in the natural flow with yourself, aligning to Source Creator and in your full divine power.
Deep buried emotions will come up from out of nowhere with great intensity to the point where you may be consumed with this emotion. Do not charge this emotion or keep it held in the energy body - it is only up for a release. It takes only a few moments to transform them forever.
For intense emotional release
We suggest moving your eyes in a zigzag pattern, from upper left to upper right, to middle left to middle right, lower left to lower right, then dart your eyes straight up and then down, making sure you are breathing, saying, "I forgive myself, I love you and release you, thank you for serving me, it is over, I come into the present, releasing you to prime Creator." Toning or a humming sound will assist greatly.
Use sage at your solar plexus
Use sage, cedar and other clearing and cleansing herbs at your solar plexus. Use the sage starting in the center of your solar plexus in a counterclockwise circle, making larger circles until you reach around your whole body. Do circles again starting at the center of your solar plexus now in a clockwise pattern, making larger circles until you reach around your whole body; then put your left hand on your solar plexus and right hand 4 inches above your head connecting to your soul star, bringing balance and higher divinity to your body and being.
You may feel the need to do this twice or more times a day until you feel cleared.
Digestion and needing more life force
Your body and being are wishing for more life light force to assist your ascension, your embodiment of your true essence, divine original blue print. Much of the foods and liquids have less life light God force in them. This is why you may feel hungry all the time and right after you eat. It was the life light God force that you were craving.
Think and feel in terms you are not eating because you are hungry, you are eating to nourish your essence and being. What you eat and drink has consciousness that can assist your cells to be awakened or deadened to the light life force. Eating is a sacred communion with God to nourish your true essence and body. When eating we suggest the release of all soul fragments to Creator, blessing your food wholeheartedly, restoring your food to a divine state of God/Light and complete nourishment.
When you are shopping for food, use your ethereal vision and feeling to see and feel what foods and liquids have the most life light force coming from them. Once you shift your consciousness in this way, you will be able to discern the highest empowerment in all that you do in your life. This is one of your sacred gifts that you already possess, to assist you in being able to navigate here on earth and especially at this time of the great purification.
Revelations
You will see hidden truths, revealed secrets and information disclosed in your world and media that may be shocking to many.
The universe and real matter are speaking to you with heightened synchronicity. Life will be validating who you are, showing you the difference your presence has made in the world.
Embrace the beauties that are coming to you. It is the return of your Holy magnificence. Wherever you are, beloved Blue Ray and light Bearer, the tides are changing. Discordant energies are being brought to Prime Creator for good. They have no power over you! These dense discordant vibrations cannot exist any longer in the world for there is not a structure to support them. This is the great purification.
The Light and love of God is the only true power and this is what you came here to be. You, my most sacred beloved, are doing just that. Know that you are on the path, on your mission. For we know the depths of your beauty and spirit and how important it is in your heart of hearts to be on your path of light. You are, you truly are!! We in all the stars and heavens support you, honor you and are with you every step, even when you feel alone - you cannot be.
All of God and Creation are reaching out to you in Light and Love. We are here in great force serving and empowering you. We are One!
sarah: yer i know what you mean, allot's changed since i was a young fella, but yes the bullying is over because i'm big enough and old enough to stand up and go peh i don't need this crap in my life no more, and the bullie's that continue i just go well your not worth my time, 90% of them are still in the same situation they where almost 6 years ago huh!
as for crying well it's not my thing, i will let it out sooner or later but i feel as though it will be in my mrs arms, i feel vonerable yet safe with her so yer, it's hard because i draw all my strength from the love of my partners, there the only one's i can trust and up until now that's been an issue!
as for my girlfriend, i assure you i didn't manifest her up at all, i have known about her being the girl i would be with for the rest of this life since i was 6 years old, i didn't even know that i had the ability to see the future, i just thought i had an over active imagination, so as you can imagine my surprise when to find that the girl of my dreams (litraly and in detail) and all that she is was actually real and love's me for me!
couldn't be happier!
Pallas: thank you, i shall grow in more ways than i thought possible!
my spiritual side is blossuming and coming along and the base of my existance and purpose is becoming clear by the day, thank you for those kind words, sometime's it's nice to hear it :)
well sarah the 3rd situation was just the opertunity for everything that had been building up to be let loose that one time!
i rarely cry anymore, i'm allot like your hubby karen, i have been in some pretty messed up situations like that, i've held my friend in my arms while he died and wasn't able to shed a single tear!
mostly stabbings and stuff but occasionly someone would be dragged off and had a bullet, luckily for me i walked away from that world before i was affiliated with anybody!
with the bullie's sarah i was bullied right up until. well actually technically about 2 months ago where i went f this i'm pergening my life of negativity, never felt better, difference was i got to escape to a different state through my parents and start fresh, but i'm 22 and to be honest the bullying never really got better!
i have found my somebody, that one person, i've had her in my dreams since i was 6 years old, i thought she was a fantasy girl. until i saw the picture and then she told me she had fallen for me, it's more than i have ever dreamed of!
it's just the wait that sucks!!!