Hello all. This is my first post here, and it may be long. Hopefully the wall of text isn't too discouraging and some lovely folks can give me their input and advice. Thanks in advance.
I feel extremely compelled to share an experience of mine that occurred to me less than an hour ago. Basically I've been in a rut the past few weeks, with heavy feelings of low vibrations and overall dense energies. Today, I started feeling a lot better after continued meditation and some dietary detox, so when I went to meditate before bed, I noticed that there was a difference in what I usually "see" when I close my eyes. Instead of the usual darkness and the random swirls seen beneath my eyelids, I immediately noticed a difference. There seemed to be tangible designs and colors and patterns manifesting through the void of my mind's eye, to the point that I was in awe. Truly, it seemed like these energies were right in front of me, and they were causing all kinds of visuals beneath my eyelids. I know the difference between imagining things and flat-out experiencing things.
So, feeling empowered and energetic by all of this, I called out to my guides and to my star brothers and sisters and to Archangel Michael, stretching out my mind in a regular attempt to connect to higher frequencies. I meditated for a short while, and like I sometimes do, I finished my meditation by extending my thoughts and expressing that I was in need of direction and would greatly appreciate it in any form that it could be delivered. I also emphasized that I would really appreciate it if they could make more attempts to connect with me in dreams, since I really struggle to receive messages through conscious meditation, I just do it more for peace of mind and every other benefit that meditation brings.
This may not be a good thing, but as I've lately been finding myself requiring less sleep for whatever reason, I haven't been going to sleep until very late (usually anywhere from 4-6). I can tell you that when I checked the time as I was going to bed after the meditation that it was 5:27, and the nightmare that ensued continued until exactly 5:57, which was when I woke up. So i basically fell asleep within minutes (which is very strange for me) and had one of the most vivid nightmares (if I can even call it that) of my life.
I dreamed that I was in a dark and cluttered house, with dolls and puppets in one room, and debris throughout the rest of the house. I immediately felt a very oppressive presence. I knew it was all around me. It dulled all of my dream senses, making everything appear hazy and cloudy. Everywhere I went the room with puppets was in my vision, and every time I looked into it there was a new puppet staring at me, a different one every time, and it made me very nervous. At some point in the dream I was at the front door of the house, I wanted to escape, but I couldn't quite get out. I looked around and, sure enough, the largest puppet yet had found itself nearby to me. This is where the dream itself sort of ends, as I believe I basically just went into an all out battle with the oppressive presence after that. I tried to open my eyes after the dream ended, but when I opened them (or at least it felt like I opened them) nothing really happened, and that was when I knew I was still in a dream. This is perhaps only the second or third instance of lucidity I have achieved in any dream in my life. Well, when I tried to open my eyes, I was just greeted with more darkness, and again I felt that overwhelming oppressive presence. I know in the past I would have been scared witless, but in recent months I've really let go of most fears, and so instead of getting scared, I became angry and tried to force the presence away through will and intent. The presence fought back, and I could begin to see distortions and other dark things in my vision, and I pressed on and commanded this presence to get the hell out of my house, until eventually the presence ended and I opened my eyes for real. I wasn't scared at all when I awoke, I was fully conscious of what had transpired and was totally shocked to see that this had all happened in a mere half hour! These kinds of things don't really happen to me, and this is why I feel so compelled to share this with you guys here. Usually I just handle these things myself, I'm very self-reliant, but I just wanted to get some opinions on the matter, I know you all are a bright group =]
They say to be careful what you wish for. I certainly don't think I invited any dark beings into myself or into my dreamscape while I meditated. I know this had to be some kind of message, and I suspect there is something I can learn from it, though right now it is beyond me. What do you guys make of this? Could there be any kind of reason why my guides would choose to communicate to me through a nightmare? I know that communicating with one's guide should obviously never feel oppressive, but I'm wondering if maybe this was intentional on their part. Or maybe I was really visited my something dark. I don't know. Thoughts? And again, thanks.
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