SOS - Packing my bags and go???

I'd like to have your view on this one, PLEASE!

 

I just finished renovating my house, after my kids moved out, converting their rooms into Reiki and hypnosis rooms. I thought I would start my healing practice in January. I thought I had direction regarding what I would love to do - to heal people. All the touch-ups have been done and I thought I was "ready to go!"

 

Now last week I had a hectic spiritual healing and two days thereafter I woke up all restless; having the shakes, the shivers, feeling the energies: I HAVE TO PACK MY BAGS. I HAVE TO SELL MY HOUSE AND USE THE MONEY TO TRAVEL.

 

Below I summarized parts of what I wrote in my journal that morning: [[...]]

[[ About a month ago my son wanted to know about my financial situation. Then he said to me: "Mommy, why don't you sell the place and travel?"

Though I was looking forward to starting my practice and enjoyed the renovations, I still procrastinated somewhat, as if I unconsciously knew that this wasn't going to happen.

I LOVE my home, but since the kids moved out, I felt loneliness nibbling at my heart and sometimes I thought that this house is too big for me - am I sort of detaching from it?

While married, we had the most wonderful trips into the African bush. Originally coming from Germany, was I re-introduced to my "home"? Our trips gave me the opportunity to re-connect to the bush, to re-discover the beauty of it and to rejuvenate my soul. I simply loved those trips!

I have no more obligations but toward God, myself and humanity. The kids are able to support themselves, plus there's still daddy they can turn to if they need help.

I am free. ]]

 

And having been single for the past 5 years, I soo long to meet "Mr Right", and yesterday my medium told me I would meet my soul mate on one of my travels. He predicts I will leave latest in June/July. He also said that my guides may kick me out of my house if I won't do it "voluntarily", be it a burglary, or financial upheavals - well, whatever.

 

I consulted my various tarot cards, too. And that's what the result was: New Beginnings - Your inner guidance is real and trustworthy - Creative writing -  Focus upon your strength - Hello from Heaven

 

There is so much synchronicity - so much makes sense, but the logical mind tells me "This is insane!" I'm SHIT SCARED (excuse the language). How can I possibly give up everything? I love my home, I love the security I have, everything just seemed to be sort of perfect and now I must move???

All those fears and questions pop up: Where am I supposed to travel to? What will I do? I'm already 50, I need a job, I need to support myself financially, and so on...

 

Just put yourself into my shoes and see what thoughts you would have about this, and you will understand my utter confusion.

 

Yes, the spiritual path is a wondrous one, but I think I must have had a little bit too much wine when charting this lifetime. I havent' got the foggiest idea how to go about this.

 

Your insights are highly appreciated.

Blessings, Love and LIght

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  • Put the house up for rent, ( so you still have a monthly income) and GO!!!!!!! when you decide to go back the house will still be there :)

  • Thanks Sweetie! 'Rebirth' was my first spiritual abstract art and everything flowed from there. I'm finishing my 5th piece. This piece is my very first piece...so..it isn't for sale...but you can download this picture and use it on your desktop....to remind yourself that you need to start 'thinking' of yourself and doing stuff for yourself. I've 3 pieces for sale...if anyone is interested. One piece is in museum glass - framed.

    Let me know if you managed to download this piece...if not, send me your email and I'll attach the file to you....and oh...it isn't painting...it's professional artist color pencil (not lead but oil colors) on Canson art paper - also professional grade sealed with at least 2 layers of Workable Fixatif. It's considered 'drawing'. My emaill address: agnes_khooschwenk@yhaoo.com...please do keep me updated and I'll continue to send Reiki blessings your way.

  • Namaste/Jai Ma/Sai Ram,

     

    Perhaps this can help you out: www.travel4life.org

     

    This man quit his job and has since traveled to over 40 countries around the world.  Perhaps he can give you some advice on how to proceed.  You can travel places cheaply.  If traveling cheap, then you could transition from things you no longer need easier.

     

    Peace, Love and Light,

    BJ

  • thanks for the kinds words, I cherish your friendship.

    Follow the signs ...hear ur heart speak and let ur favorite painting emerge :-)

  • Spirit Growth...go out and grow....this time for yourself. Our prime creator, Father Mother God, is asking you to start looking after yourself, your spiritual growth and here is my Reiki healings for your spiritual growth - my spiritual abstract art and this piece is titled: Rebirth.

    This is truly a season of 'rebirth' for you, dear One. May you find peace, love, joy, hope, courage and confidence to go forth and find yourself this Christmas season and may you have a full and happy 2011.

  • Dear Spirit Growth...could not help but reply to this beuatiful thread...hope you do not mind my intervention ...

    This is the opportunity given by Free Will - which we all have been benedicted with - and this exhilaration is too much to handle at times. Deep breathing , meditation is introspection helps here.

    Take every step slowly and feel the music of joy and love - those will be the sign of right path. look out for signs around you. Ask your Spirit Guides and Guardian  Angels for their intervention. Let time not be the factor to move ...feel the music of joy in every step - don't be time bound. Find out what makes your heart sing. There is no right and wrong - it's the journey  ...the path that your create for yourself as you know yourself better than any one. Lots of luv and light! 

  • Two days ago (12/12/10) I packed my bags and started hitchhiking across texas... I was staying out in the country with grandma; love the nature; but all of a sudden; literally..  everybody thought i was going to hurt myself or something? IDK. I just listen to my heart and now i am in arlington my mom and I have reconnected and healing old traumas. I DO feel something NEW came in. I do feel the energetic pulsation even more so... i had no job; no money; all i brought was clothes and once i completely let go.. all the right things started happening; a friend gave me a coat a strange some leather gloves a old couple a ride an old man bought me food and i was just sitting there meditating... the surrender to the moment of abundance is real!!!!

    i thought i was going to New mexico; maybe i still am. IDK ; all i do know is that the universe is a concious living being that always surrounds you and will provide if you would just believe ;)

    if you want to; just let go... from everything; get ready for the water works cause the mental/emotional body goees through a deep cleansing when u suddenly abandon everything; but, just be aware of the process...

    when i got to north richland hills (in Texas) i ran into friends i grew up with; i spent the night with them; i fed the body and stuff and ended up channeling like the whole time.. or i was just quiet; it was wierd. anyway; my mom after knowing i came all this way decides that i can come to her house.. when i get here i had a closet full of clothes and lets just say abundance... this is so wierd; i woke up at 3;33 this morning and cannot go back to bed; i just am. i dont need to sleep. i dont need anything but the SELF; the MOMENT; and concious presence of course ;)

     

    Thank you for allowing me to share my journey... i love you all brothers and sisters.

    11;11

  • Dear Spirit Growth,
    You've the synchronicities in front of you. I would suggest that you follow them. I followed mine although I was terrified back in 2004 till 2007 when I finally migrated to USA. We're just one year in this 'new' old house and I love everything about it ...and I too, felt that this house won't be needed after 2012. Since you're alone and searching for your new love...ask God for the courage to move on. Mother God (Mother Azna) will help you along the way...she always does....as she did for me all my life.

    I'm a Reiki practitioner myself and Mother Earth need you to send Reiki healings to her....and perhaps you'll be able to make a living out of it....while you're travelling. I can understand what you're going through...been there...done that.

    Anyway, have full trust that Father/Mother God will show you the way...where to go ....just trust your higher self that all will be done for your highest good. Right now, you need to focus on your energy, harness it and channel it for your travel...the Reiki way. Send your intentions and blessings ahead of you...and you'll be guided accordingly.

    Sending Reiki blessings your way and may you find peace, courage, precise directions and wisdom on your journey.

    Love, Light & Blessings,
    Agnes
  • Thanks for your words from the heart.

    The fears that pop up from time to time should, in my opinion, be seen as catalyst for growth.

    This could be seen as a type of 'test'.

    When deciding on a change of course in ones life what should be consulted?

    The intellect or the heart?

     

    Wishing you all the luck in the world.

     

    Ashim

     

  • This is a hypocrite speaking, but....

    Take a baseball bat and SMASH THAT LOGIC ASIDE!!!!  Ignore your logic, go with your heart!

    Very simple.   But like most simple solutions, it's very hard.

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