Spiritual Forum

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  Zeo June 24, 2014 at 10:25am

  Listened to some Theta bineral beats and it made things seem different. Quieted the voices quite a bit. Seems a dark approach seeing the comments on the video, but I guess things have to get worse before they get better. I'll be back if I ever get better guys. Thanks for the help. See you on the other side :D
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  Ara June 23, 2014 at 5:08pm

  The World is not your burden Zeo ;)) you are not design to care that on your shoulders, you can share with the rest of 7 billion and let go, unless you don't want to that's different story - 'what we resist, persists' ... ;))
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  Yonatan Katz June 22, 2014 at 9:07pm

  Hi Zeo,
  
  May I ask, what kind of meditation do you do? There are many different kinds and some are less potent and some are more, and each tends to give a different effect over time.
  
  I know of one kind of meditation that is powerful (mantra) that I do frequently an am experienced at so I can help in that if you want. Tell me what kind of meditation you do and I'll tell you what I think about it. Also message me if you are interested in learning the mantra med.
  
  Much good to you and be blessed on your path. :)
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    Zeo > Yonatan Katz June 23, 2014 at 7:38am

    The meditaton, if can even be called that is a whole bunch of voices from people around me asking questions. Then my mind races through most every possible answer I can give them. Its usually faster than I can comprehend and flows in a strange rhyme. Then if someone doesn't agree with the rhyme because they simply don't want to, the (what I believe to be) Da Vinci code runs through my head in a string of numbers from 1-9, and then zero, always starting on one, and figuratively on zero never counted. When the string stops, it comes to a rhyme and the last number usually means something significant.
    
    Other than that, creating chakra orbs to see how well my body is reacting to the universe itself. Lately, not so hot. Much pain all over, and especially in my head. The lights mix with the darks and get twisted in knots within me. People seem to resent it. A lot.
    
    I can't do mantra at all. I used to, very well. But now - the voices in the air will sync to my mantra, and I really need peace to myself. It doesn't matter what I'm doing. They're always there speaking to each other, and its like the other doesn't care, but when I think - everyone chimes in with exactly what I'm thinking. Then instantly after say "I don't care" or "You're freaking me out". Really hard to find peace when you can't silence other people. That don't care.. its horrible honestly.
    
    I miss my old self.
    
    Makes me wish for the anuryism back, but not only is that not a possibility, its not the right answer either.
    
    I am going to take steps to see a neurologist. But that will take a lot of time.
    
    Its just...
    
    What I've seen...
    
    A beautiful world filled with terror and shame.
    
    I just think we missed our shot..
    
    I also feel like I should take full blame for everyone on this planet..
    
    Quite possibly everyone in this universe and even neighboring universes as well.
    
    Dunno. Maybe I'm being melodramatic, but I do feel sometimes that everyone thinks the way they think today because of my mistakes.
    
    I just wanted to help everyone.
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      Yonatan Katz > Zeo June 23, 2014 at 9:07am

      Hi Zeo,
      
      I can feel your pain (in an empathic way), and I am sorry you feel so bad. I can really relate to you, if not to the content then to your emotional state. I have been in a very bad place myself. I managed to heal a lot of what put me down so much over the years. We can get over these things, it might take hard work and time, but being patient with ourselves and the flow of things, everything good can come to greet us.
      
      May I suggest that you try a different kind of meditation? I think it can really help. If not instead of the one you do now then in addition to. The Buddha also was very in favor of it and you probably did it at some point. Very simple. You just sit and bring your attention to your belly, and notice with every in and out breath how it goes forward and backwards. Do this for a few minutes at first if it is hard with the noises you hear. You can do for even 1 or 2 minutes at first, and do this at least twice a day when you wake up and in the evening or night but not right before you go to sleep, so there will be some active time afterwards. You can later increase the time to what you can do, I suggest to maximum 20 minutes if you can.
      
      It may be hard at first because of the distractions, but adjust the time to what you can do, if even half a minute, it can really help - you said you wanted peace, and this is one way to get there. If you want to know anything else or need help with it just send me a message :)
      
      And don't give up on yourself ever! You are very important and a huge part of this universe. You are special and I believe in you.
      
      Much Love.

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  Mees June 22, 2014 at 7:04pm

  In the darkes hour of life we find our true self and see the light th brightes, maybe you had a really good light before but your guides wanted to show you the true bright coulour of the light.

  i suggest you meditate in the morning ( thats the best time)

  and i highly recommend you to spend as much time in nature as you can! Meditaing in nature is even better :)

  i wish you love and light with your healing process and let me know how things keep going!

  namaste and light
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    turtles > Mees June 22, 2014 at 8:13pm

    i agree on the meditation in the morning. i found that the best time is very early as people are still asleep and a lot of psychic chatter is not floating around in the air......
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      turtles > turtles June 22, 2014 at 9:08pm

      also when it comes to meditation you might want to try to find more passive forms of meditation as opposed to something like zen meditation......both types are amazing and wonderful, but the passive might be more helpful if meditation is difficult for you at times......
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        Yonatan Katz > turtles June 22, 2014 at 9:18pm

        I wholeheartedly agree turtles, I love them both, both are great. I also love Adyashanti's meditation of just letting everything be as it is, which is very passive.
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  Zeo June 22, 2014 at 11:09am

  I'm not sure if I mentioned the anuryism that I survived without medical treatment. Not sure. Maybe. Anyway, that's what opened me up to all the priors. I littarly see everything before during and after it happens. Weather or not I take notice (or am allowed to take notice through the proximity of collective concicence is a different story.)
  
  Back to - I am ultra sensitive to all of these things. My story is very long, and quite hard to actually believe. But true none the less.
  
  What I'm trying to say is that I am at peace with how things are because they are.
  
  What I am not at peace with are the chemicals that have been trapped and forcibly turning off my connection to my true self.
  
  Meditation only works so far. If my body is a vessel f9r the soul so to speak, and I am the house in which my soul lives, I've been locked out and am outside searching for the key to come back home.
  
  This is where the physical aspect comes in. On a molecular level my brain has been cluttered with chemicals that have rewritten my physical anatomy. Meaning that some of the molecular bonds must still be attached within causing this block. Maybe, maybe not. What I need is a serious "jump start" as my "battery" has been caused to die, and the chemicals broke the altinator. Like bad gas, shutting a car down. What happens to gas that sits in an engine? Corrosion.
  
  So I need to figure out how to get the corroded chemicals out of my head in order to jump the spark plugs (neurotrabsmittors) so I can get that internal combustion so the car (my body) will start working properly again. Now I'm aware of the miles I have, and that if I sit too long I'll become cold. I can't let this happen.
  
  So then only two things I'm looking for are the physical properties in oder to get the corrosion out. Much like an engine cleaner. Something powerful, but not harmful to the engine (my head).
  
  I hope this puts it into perspective. Meditation is fine but aside from the anuryism that was up there, I also broke my spine in a serious car accident. So bending and turning causes lots of pain that's trully hard to work past and doesn't clear my mind. It very much could entice a headache (not that its bad, just not what I'm looking for at this momment. But deffinatly in the future.)
  
  This is my reason for being so specific.
  
  The worst part is, the worse I get, no matter me ~ the people around me get worse as well. Things have been slowly getting better, but I need to clear my physical body of this chemical confusion and faulty wiring before it becomes out of reach.
  
  I know this is asking a lot, and thank you for the help. It is greatly appreciated.
  
  The things I have tried are Melitonin. That alone gives me lucid dreams, and everyone is on the other side having knowing exactly who I am. Though none of them I can recall.
  
  Its just tough, being at such a heightened state of awareness, but being held back so much similtanioualy.
  
  Sorry to have gone on such a tangit. Its just I'm looking for my key, and just can't seem to find it.