It was time for a break from reality, everything was taking up to much time and important activities were being left for another day. Never leave for tomorrow what you can do today, as my mother would always say. There was a period of a few weeks where my life seemed to come to a dead end, I am on holidays and have very little to do, it is usually busy all the time. So I decided to visit my home town with a plan of escaping for a few day, take in the peace and quiet and release some of the edgyness I had noticed over the last few weeks, there was a need to release something and I did not know what.

I got to my fathers house and we caught up with all of our news, it is always nice to be home, I decided to pack all my luggage in my room and then make a few phone calls. These phone calls were to be the key, to help me remove old karma or negativity that keeps coming back to haunt me. So I got my supply of high grade Bolivian marching powder and Mary Jane to keep things calm.

I was to spend most of the week in a very good mood, I would indulge during the day, maybe go out and catch up with old friends, watch a match at the pub, all great fun. The first night I started to meditate after a long day and a few smokes, it was a beautiful meditation that may have gone on for hours and I really enjoyed it. Then I took some benzos to get to sleep and woke up the next day in great form.

The day started with a few nice big inhales and a smoke and then my father informs me the rest of the family are to visit that day, I was a little worried but it turned out to be a great day after all, I continued on my session after they were gone home, and decided to meditate again. This meditation brought up harsh realities about my life and the fact that some changes are needed. I always try to go with the flow and go with it even when hard subjects come up, so that I can deal with it and then move on. I need to be all round more positive in life and this is the first time I have actually accepted that. I realise substances in most cases in my life held me back but in this case I learned something life changing instead, it all depends on how you want the experience to go, we are ultimately in charge of our own reality.