Spiritual Forum

I'm feeling at the very moment as no matter what you do, if you are a white or a dark had it is all totally ointless:

Even those we usually consider to be in a better position than I am at the moment have to face that fact that there are no gains without loses.

So what are we actually all looking for?

Even those who escaped the circle of life and death are gaining this privilege only by at least the sad knowing that most others are going to suffer even more then.

Those who try to rescue those imprisoned here are risking there existence and all they have been working for so many lifetimes before.

And even if eternal peace is reached there would be no real progress for anyone as each movement for each sides would only recreate the risk of mistrust and anger...

For me it just seems like the only choice anyone can make is about how to handle this,

I prefer to not even be aware of it as the awareness only makes my soul hurt.

But the ignorance of it only makes life even harder for ALL others.

Yes of course it is true that you can work your way up. But even than seemingly the only question is about how long you will be able to keep up there until you fall again in the darkness of what you've done without any real progress to all that is.

It seems like the only unchangeable truth:

All together everything seems to stay just as good or evil as all has ever been and will ever be, won't it?

I hate the fact that the only possibility to improve your well being seems to make that of others worse.

So how could this dilemma ever be solved?

I don't know.

Does anyone have an idea? If so please tell me.

And maybe even this final understanding only leads to the wish to forget about everything again.

And so I feel like I could never make anything right nor could I do anything wrong.

It all remains nothing but a matter of taste.

And at this very moment I realize that at the very top of this all live it seems to be the very same problem as well:

Either the continue of the unfairness of evolution or the impossibility of progress.

I begin to understand better than I ever intended to do WHY the dark ones hate life as such so much...

But it is actually not lives fault is it the fault of nature's physical laws...

I give up to change anything as I can't change that fact anyway.

Shall the one who is able to do so do it!