Spiritual Forum

As a child i could never sleep  because when i closed my eyes i saw stars and my mind would begin to race. wondering why the universe was inside of me and at age 5 or 6 of course the answers never came so i began to dull things out by avid reading. books beings my first drug i ever used to escape this world (my mom actually would take away my reading privileges and force me to watch tv with the family and i would sneak and hide and read with a flashlight beneath my blanket to read. (IS THIS WEIRD). So that was my first drug and as an adult experimented with lots of others to accomplish what reading did for me as a kid....to shut my brain up. i think it worked to well ...i now see nothing when i close my eyes :(. have i destroyed my personal universe?  one more thing....as a child ..loving to shock people i would tell them my theory of aliens and angels being one and the same and people were just confused by these star beings. i thought i was the only one with that belief at the time didn't know where it came from but thought i was brilliant for thinking it :) :) lol...but i now know i'm not alone.but maybe on the next concept ..i would also state to others how the aliens were brilliant with there antenna on there head and maybe we humans should try this so we can transmit our communications better therefore more mutual understanding (since i was/am often misunderstood. anyone heard of an antenna i could place on my head for better reception? just askin...lol :)