My synchronicities had led me to a person, who actually I wasn't led to, but joined in as an intern where I worked. All kinds of synchronicities, from the 11:11 co-incidences, to her aligning entirely with my life,and all that I had experienced so far. However, it was a disaster from the word 'go', 5 months later, I've lost the same job, She finds me an imposition in her life, and there are more synchronous events, like the discovery of this page : http://blackdogstar.blogspot.in which aligns perfectly to my life.
The strange part is that I find myself sandwiched, and kind of.. squeezed in between my synchronicities, my will to resolve this conflict with this person, and her having nothing but absolute disdain for me, in this moment.
I've lost the very job, I've lost my friends, I've lost the time in this golden year that could've been utilized in meditation, and helping others, because I blindly followed the signs and forgot about everything else.
I feel that my ego-mind is so active that even when I try to meditate for extended periods of time, the ego reacts, and disallows me from connecting with my higher self, because as far as I could THINK it, I have, and I've also had my cousin, who's an indigo child tell me that I've had some brain damage from this 'exercise'.
I possess a calm frame of mind, because ultimately what I've come to realize is that NOTHING is paramount, however, I feel like I've failed my mission, and I don't fear anything really, just disappointed.