It's my sons 16 birthday next Monday, and I'm a single dad, and tonight, my lungs started bleeding again (3 large bleeds since midnight, now 2:25AM), and I'm not sure whether to wake my son and take him back with me to the hospital, or just ignore it, disbelieve in it, and have it go away like all other illness except for my constant migraines. (My son would panic if he woke up and I weren't here and he wasn't told)
The medical staff at the local hospital all told me yesterday I wouldn't be home for my sons birthday, and I told them I would be out that evening, and much to the surprise of many I was, (I didn't argue and sign myself out, a Dr consented to my being released without me asking), but I'm not sure if that's the best thing right now.
Should I go back to the hospital?
Should I risk going to sleep, knowing if the bleeding starts again while I'm laying down I can actually drown?
I'm honestly trying not to stress my son out, but he spent all yesterday with me, after only having 2 hours sleep before I woke him, and he slept last night, and I'd like him to sleep tonight without disturbance, though he came out 30 minutes ago to check on me because the bleeding started again tonight just after getting him to bed.
When the bleeding started yesterday, it was 3 months to the day from when I was given a warning.
The warning: I had a short time to get my affairs in order, and this warning was given by 3 small childlike humanoid non earthlings who tried to take me one night, but returned me after I objected on the grounds my son still needing me.
This isn't an over active imagination, and I haven't just thought this up, I actually posted here about the alien visitation that night, the morning it happened.
I'm concerned for the welfare of my son, and concerned that my lungs constantly bleeding isn't a good thing.
Any suggestions, apart from the obvious, get to the hospital?
Even better, thoughts of my immediate healing would be most appreciated.
I refuse to have this wrong with me, and refuse to accept it.
Thanks!
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Do you believe you have lung cancer, if so it is not to late to do something about it your way, sod the hospital at best they will kill you, even if it is not as bad as that the zeolite will help, trust me I have really looked into the best way to handle this and today I feel more positive and well for a change, so come on we will do this together I am with you holding your hand , just order the stuff and begin to live again not dwell on dying, do it for your son....love to you both
Even if the bronchoscopy returns positive results, I will refuse to accept it, and I will be fully healed in no time. Last Tuesday when the bleeding initially started, I told the doctors at my local hospital I would be home that afternoon. They all told me that was impossible, though at the time they did believe it was a pulmonary embolism (blood clot in the lung), but I told them it wasn't and I would be leaving that evening, which I did at the doctors own suggestion.
The mind is a wonderful thing, and wields incredible power for those who can believe in their own ability to refuse to let anything affect them.
With the link you provided, you have accidentally put a comma instead of a dot (period) between the site name and the com (cancerfightstrategies,com instead of cancerfightstrategies.com).
Perhaps you could edit your post and fix this because others interested may not read this comment, and won't know why they continually get an error while trying to access the page.
Thanks again!
I do however intend to make a difference in my sons life, and refuse to abandon him till his life is in order, and he is grown enough to be fully self sufficient, and I'd love to se him settled and happy.
At the moment, after being bullied his entire school life by everyone, and having no friends (I pulled him from school at 14), whenever we go anywhere , he walks so close to me that he is constantly tripping me. Brett is so insecure, he was getting bullied by everyone from children to teachers at school, then getting beaten and treated like crap by his mother. The highlight of my life was when she kicked him out, and I got a text message at 10PM to say he had to stay with me for a month, like it was some sort of punishment. He refused to go back to his mothers, and that's after I fought for years to get custody of him.
Believe it or not, it's not unusual for me to invite his mother to join us when we go to the movies, my treat, or for me to spend $100 for a mothers day, or birthday/Christmas present. My kindness makes her either hate me more, or makes her resent herself for what she did. I forgave her long ago because the hatred was hurting me, but I think she has trouble forgiving herself.
I'd love to sleep, but every time I try the bleeding starts again, so I'm going to ambush my GP without an appointment, and his surgery opens in 45 minutes.
Jayne
I discussed that visit with my doctor, he gave me an ECG and told me it was just a dream, I wonder what he will say in about 3 hours when I bash on his door without an appointment.................................
I think I will end up in hospital again, but I really don't want too, because I don't think they will let me out so easy, and my son isn't celebrating his 16th at a hospital bed looking at me with tubes hanging from everywhere like he did yesterday! Birthdays are a time of celebration, not regret and pain!
Bless Your Hearts.
You and your Son's Higher Selves know what is going on. And know exactly what to do.
I am, with the help of my Higher Self, sending and surrounding you with Love and Light. Your Son and You, United in Love, can banish the fear, and come to understand Your Power Together. Stand together in Your Power, the Force is With you.
Let the Love Force carry both of you N2 the Light of Love and Dispel all fear. You are Loved You are Love.
Carpe Diem . . .
Seize the Moment . . .for Love
XOXO
faith
I did smoke, but found a great time and excuse to quit very recently, something to do with blood. I have had chest pain for quite a while, and since having formerly had heart problems, I put it down to that, but apparently, the chest pain was my lungs not my heart, and only a couple of months ago I had an ECG because I requested it from my local GP because of the pain. Why did he not explain then the pain could be my lungs? (no lawsuits here, I'm not like that)
I always considered lung pain to be around under the shoulder blades and nowhere near the heart, I seem to forget that at 60 kilograms, and 5'11 approx, my lungs have to share what space they can find within the area that's usually a chest, but more a poor excuse for one on me.
Sorry, I always try to maintain a sense of humour, more so when I don't feel well, and I laid down for 45 minutes but got up choking, it had started again 1 hour ago, and right this second, started yet again.
I don't have a choice of hospitals living in a country area in western New South Wales Australia, but I will have a chat with my GP of 10 years later in the morning when the surgery opens. I have a jar with a considerable amount of blood, and I don't have an appointment, but he will see me when I wave the jar around.
Interesting mentioning my son knew what the agreement was before coming, my son is an incarnation of my abusive late father, and once stated something in my late fathers voice when he was only 3, and in words he neither knew, had ever heard, or could pronounce, (My son has a major hearing impairment and couldn't speak well at 3)
It was that very day I was presented with the opportunity to get even with my extremely abusive father, whom I hated with a passion, even after death, or to love that beautiful little boy, regardless of what he said to me (which I've never told anyone what he said, too personal and hurtful), and despite knowing who he had been, and what he had done to me (in a different body and a former life) I chose to love him, and have never regretted it. I sometimes wonder how my life would be had I chosen the other path, I know my son would most probably be stronger and more independent, but his life wouldn't be very happy, nor would mine, just seeing him smile makes my day.
Sorry folks, I'm rambling, I should get some sleep, but I can't stay laying for long without choking, so I think I'll watch a movie or something instead.
You are fine, love. You will feel better soon.
It is not really possible for others to have suggestions for you on this situation because we all have individual contracts for this life-time. I would ask for guidance and understanding of what the message is that is being sent to me through my body... But when one is upset, fearful or angry, one cannot listen with the heart very well.
Remember though, your son is equally loved and no matter what,... he will have protection and guidance.He has his own angels around him, if he believs in them or not...He Is Not Alone .......and never will be!
I wish for you and ask the Creator to give you peace and a sense of acceptance for whatever it is you are now or might have to deal with in the future.
Trust that all is well... no matter what!!
Blessings to you and Love and Light.
Marion
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