This sentence from Nietzsche (Beyond good and evil, pt. IX) has really saved my life. This I learned from my grandfather. No party, no mass meetings, no assembly of anyone. The only organization we belonged was the lutheran church.

I an not an extremist in this case. But I always had a deep suspicion, when it came to community things. And when it came to people claiming leadership.

This was exactly an important subject of my study almost my whole life - what is proper community and proper leadership. To be honest, I have not found a satisfying answer until now.

I have had a couple fine communities in my life, that is true. But mostly it left me with many questions.

Why the heck are so many people out there looking for being part of a community? Because humans are community people? Is community more than individuals, like Confuzius tought?

Actually, it doesn`t interest me. Until now I feel strange in this world, and I never got rid of it. I cannot help myself, this is the way I have to deal with.

Nevertheless I feel some deep connections to people and things. Sometimes I must hug a tree or speak to ravens, which come each day to a tree in front of my office.

And this gives me also courage to go on. Maybe there is no real need having a physical community of  those, who are awakened, a communio sanctorum. In fact, all are connected somehow, and all

are, as I believe, perfectly right at the right place in the right time.

And maybe this is the real "magnetical grid" having so many distributed awakened ones around the globe thus really giving the world light and love and hope...