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I remember last year with the little book being published called "Fuck it!" (http://www.amazon.com/Fuck-Ultimate-Spiritual-Way/dp/1905633041), which is really not bad.

I find it very fitting in those twisted times right now, where minds are disturbed and people really have difficulties in seeing what is true and what bs.

I have always refused trying to force my limits of perception, as though I could willingly simply exceed those limits by pushing whatever. Actually I can`t.

Since I consider the "I" not absolute, but a little expression of the Great Conscience of all Being, I really find no reason denying limits of the "I". Instead of fighting against such temporal appearance and it`s rules - which in fact are limited and temporal rules of human constitution and not essential matters, for essential is the All Connected Conscience - after getting awakened I find it necessary to arrange with human nature. And this must be not rude, but gentle. A gentle way of arranging  is patience and letting go as it is supposed to go. A gentle way is also aknowledging the limits and follow times of revelation. Revelation means something is revealing according it`s own time and plan.

So I often sit back and relax. I do my daily work as usual keeping attention, that some surprising matters might occur - if not, no problem. I do nothing special, no meditation for hours, no obsessive visualisation, but often I think "fuck it". I only meditate and pray if I feel it`s time now.

Same with reading stuff. I have a big library, but finally I stoped simply bying books. I have the feeling, that books "come to me" without having looked for it. It simply happens.

This doen not mean all difficulties have disappeared now. The opposite is true. I`m often struggeling with self esteem and depressions - they simply do not want to go away. And sometimes I am very sad about not having a family anymore. Then I wish I had a lovely person to huddle up. And constantly I have not enough money to have a nice vacation or a new car. Well, fuck it.

But my energy drives me running and going ahead. Most of the time I have lost any fear of being alone. I enjoy simply staring in the sky and leaning against a tree. And eating a nougat croissant in the bakery next to me. And if nothing happend, it is good too. Fuck it...