Greetings and Hope to me and us All ~!!!!!!!
..............................it has been difficult few weeks for me. It has been for 2 decades now, more or less for past 48 yrs now, at least . I have been clearing some issues for long time, like autism, manic depression in my childhood, like suicidal tendencies in my 20's , alcoholism and lack of compassion.Many failed relantionships with opposite sex, failed marriage and loss of my parental rights to my 2 children. Been told I have aids and cancer . My 9 yr road in celibacy and another failed marriage just recently.............
I guess, you can see a tough road behind me, a path full of disappointments and sorrow. ( do not feel sorry for me ~ I don't )..................last few weeks had been tough. I met nice girl, got a new job and return of panic attack. Lost the job, a girl turned away from me ( and I hope that she can understand my explanation and appologies ), my mother called me crazy. Another number of children died and everyone almost denies the visible signs of deception.
...............................I had been crying for 2 weeks now, I am tired, barely getting out of bed in the morning and trying to have a smile on my face.
.....................This post is not about to gain sympathy from readers; it is a call for compassion, kindness and maybe a little of Love for all those who struggle lately. Also, because of certain posts around ACC spectrum being deleted that few of us can , actually, benefit from in these challenging times.( no blame on Ben or / if moderators ). Please send me some energy of Love, send some to your families, friends, strangers. We All need it so bad...............................
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I am sending you Peace, Love and Light! Here is to all the positive energy pouring into your life this coming week and for the new year on!
thank you peter and fw................now, it's time to see the vids................
thank you for your Love FW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...........................I was told about it 20 yrs ago. I changed my diet from meat and junk to raw vegan fruits and veggies and it seems like it is helping me without any medications. There are times that I break down but mostly on mental level than phisical..............I am doing fine for most part but my panic attacks seem to never seize. it freaks me outthat it always happens when something possitive happens in my life, like recently me meeting this nice girl. Now I know she won't even talk to me, propably thinking I am some sort of unstable freak and mental case. I am trying hard to stay centered.........
you are such a spirit FW.............you always bring a smile to my face................Love'ya
I feel for your situation.
I understand where it is that you are.
take a step into the unknown.
that is where you you will find peace.
God speed your healing
Do and say that which it is you fear most.
To be free.
It will turn your life around.
I feel you clearly, please know that you aren't alone, we are all in this together and this energy will eventually purge itself like a wound releasing toxins so that it may be healed. I can't speak on your journey, other than to applaud that you are still here, as yourself with an open heart... that says alot right there.
The New Rule
It’s the old rule that drunks have to argue
and get into fights.
The lover is just as bad. He falls into a hole.
But down in that hole he finds something shining,
worth more than any amount of money or power.
Last night the moon came dropping its clothes in the street.
I took it as a sign to start singing,
falling up into the bowl of sky.
The bowl breaks. Everywhere is falling everywhere.
Nothing else to do.
Here’s the new rule: break the wineglass,
and fall toward the glassblower’s breath
Rumi
yea!!!!!Rumi..................you always knew how to bring a sunshine into a dark room..................love'ya Kelly