I reached the grand old age of 80 last weekend (well actually my body's age as I am only really 74 having 'walked in' during anaesthetic at the age of four during the world war 11 - yes it sounds ancient and at the moment I feel it.  I live alone and for some inexplicable reason have no friends! they come and go - I can get on with anyone, relate to humanity, but unfortunately, not for long - I was told this would be the case - I think that people sense the 'differnece' in me - I'm not sure of my original home, and of course there are many but I feel Arcturian.  Just now, coming across beautiful Sanat Kamura's post I felt tearful as I recognised him as someone I have worked for. In fact I work for several masters which probably adds to my 'difference'

However to get back to "old age" it is of course an earthly concept but equally this poor body has suffered so much throughout its sojourn. Anaesthetics - many - childbirth - antibiotics - to name but a few and of course so many shocks that my nervous system is not to good - hence my present illness of fibromyalgia and a new thing this week! of neurosthenia - feelilng out of control of my inner system. I love homeopathy and all the usual tricks that we get up to to keep going, but living alone can be tricky - someone has to get in the staple food and as we all know our diets seem to be changing constantly.

I wonder whether this new 'illness' is part of the CFS/Me syndrome or the newest download of changing the DNA which I suspect is also the nervous system but nevertheless, it is a troubelsome thing to add to my already exhausted system. i do say quite often "beam me up"  take me home - it must surely be better than this.  I created a video on my walk-in experience - videos are my way of practicing my voice! to just talk to someone! yes old age can be for some, very lonely. People are too busy and they die off leaving many of us sitting by the tv watching videos! thank goodness for Netflix!

I am fortunate in that I do have a car that I can still get into and drive quite successfully, abut I'm now aware of my limitations - it is hard to know the difference between acceptance of my bodily limitations and possibilities of healings. Beloved Jeshua said to me the other day "the body is the last thing to heal" I found that remark a bit depressing but still perservere each morning I get up to unlock my joints! 

the birthday was spent alone - I was hoping for some flowers or a present from somone at least, but nothing came. Eventually an email arrived mid afternoon from my daughter saying that the bouquet she sent on Mothers' Day (here in UK) was to cover both occasions!  She is a wealthy woman and whilst not judging too harshly I would have thought she could have ordered something on lilne (she is in NZ) However, something else to be learnt - in the Course of Miracles - it is said "expectations bring disappointments, judgments lead you from joy" Hmmm - not much comfort there.

This is my first blog in this beautiful website - well I did join up five years ago when beloved Lord Sananda put a huge picture up for me to see to remind me of his love and kindness. he pulled me across from another dimension in which I had been living - not sure why - but it was not a very kind one!  So here I am feeling very fragile having had no sleep for some days, but as Sanat Kamura says, I know that I dip in and out between 3D and 5D possibly even higher as I work with many masters, no wonder I'm exhausted.  Get me a brandy!!

love and blessings from Beth. PS for the length of this, I am a writer and do get carried away!! thanks for sharing.