Longing

Will you reveal yourself
Or will you continue
To haunt me in the shadows
To cause only poetic words
While making me a slave
To the silence that overcomes me
As I bear my grievances of living
Without you here

Are you like in my dreams
Faceless yet familiar
Do you exist beyond my inner realms
Do I exist to you and if so
Do you want me as much as I want you

We are like two separate entities
Caught in this tango
Waywardly spirited
Yet with no choice
But to desire from afar
Only the slight pang
Of sadness and yearning
Which eventually gives way
To anger and loneliness
My companion all these years

The dust has long settled
In the fine lines of memory
And the heart struggles to beat
Threatening to cease
From the want of something
Never to be again
The mind wants to escape
Though it remains ensnared
In the wishes of yesterday
Because warmth has vacated
To places I know not

As I tax my mind
With these taunting
Ever tantalizing figments
I succumb to the feeling
Of sinking, drowning
In the depths of my despair
While searching for you
Just another smile
Another word
But our time in all it’s brevity
Makes me linger
To the embrace I will never feel again
To the eyes that I will never see

You are the source of my joy
As well as my hate
My elusive love

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