hi everyone my name karma or criminal either one. ive been mediating ever since i was 15 in the usa. my brother had me read these chinese books nei kung, chi gung, we talking about 10 years ago no internet nothing. when i was young i had a very good imagnation and when i reading those books it enlightment on what a human can really do i always ask my self 101 questions. at my age now ive answer all thanks to my higher self. but i mediaTed so much i lost my way i fell to addiction herion,crack cocaine,pills, weed. but for some reason i never can ever put blame on anything because i always have my higher spirit to guide me . i use to be very displine . but now im so easy with everything i dont second guess my self if i wanted to do something and i knew it wouldnt help my phyical body i did it with ease. because deep down i no that i could always heal myself 100%. i use to be very powerful with thoughts before i did drugs but i was very lonley i didnt understand my purpose n at that point cause no one knows a dam thing about there higher self. its like telling a dog to do a 1000 pieace puzzle in 1 minute .
so now at this i no my purpose and im doing ok job but. im still off and on drugs. if i stop drugs i would be god himself and i no this but one thing i dont do is put pressure on my self anymore so im just relaxing. im always around bad energy thats a fact i live in florida im a black american . but if i focus my mind on da father i start to cry and my hole body start to tingly with vibration... this also happens when i give love to all my loves ones like are galatic family,humans everything that exist and doesnt exist. i love u guys so much im crying right now lol its always a good cry though. sometimes i cry for no reason i could be eating and BOOM im in tears.
I JUST WANT TO TELL EVERYONE THAT IVE FIGURED OUT EVERYTHING IN LIFE THERE NOTHING I DONT NO BUT IM ONLY SPEAKING FOR MY SELF. I DONT READ BOOKS ANYMORE ITS USELESS WHEN I CAN CONTACT MY HIGHER SPIRIT THROUGH LOVE. I WILL EASILY DIE FOR ANYONE OF YOU BECAUSE LOVE IS REALLY THAT POWERFUL. IM A HOMELESS BUM RIGHT NOW BUT I NO AT THIS POINT I HAVE TO BE THIS. IVE SAVE LOTS OF LIVES WE ALL HAVE THIS POWER WE ALL ONE................... IM GOING TO TELL U SOMETHING PERSONAL ABOUT ME WHEN I WAS 5 YEARS OLD MY DAD ABUSED VERY BAD EVERYDAY. I WAS GOING TO KILL ME BECAUSE I DIDNT FEEL LOVED ... I HAD THE RAZOR I KNEW WHICH VAIN I WAS READY BUT THAN..................SOMETHING SAID NO DONT DO IT YOU ARE VERY SPECIAL AND AFTER THAT I STOP CRYING ... I FELT REAL BETTA... I CANT NEVA FORGET THAT AND NOW I WANTED TO THANK GOD FOR THAT HELP. BECAUSE WE ARE NEVER, NO REALLY NEVER ALONE!!!!!!!
RIGHT NOW I NO ALL I HAVE TO FIND THE RIGHT FLOCK TOO FLY WITH BECAUSE IM IN VERY DARK AREAS ITS LOTS OF MATERLISTIC PEOPLE OUT THERE... MY REAL NAME JASON NICE TO MEET MY BEAUTYFUL PEOPLE. IF I CAN FLY IN YOUR FLOCK LET ME NO. CAUSE MY HIGHER SPIRIT CANT WAIT HE IS A FUNNY AS &^$y%$&^&&$&$&^$ .
WHEN I NEVER DID DRUGS I SEEN ORBS DAILY I WAS COMPLETE HEALTH NOW I FELL OFF BUT SPIRIT AINT GOING NO WHERE IM JUST LAZY OR AM I SCARED TO CHANGE INTO THIS ENLIGHTMENT BEING. I HAVE NO FEAR IN MY HEART NOT EVEN 1%. MUCH LOVE TO ALL OF U. I LOVE U DARLY TRUST ME!!!!! I TALK TO PLANTS AND ANIMALS ONCE IN A WHILE. CATS FOLLOW ME ALOT OR STARE AT ME I HAVENT BEEN ABLE TO FIGURE OUT Y DOE . IM A LIBRA AS WELL ANYONE WANTS TO MAIL ME FEEL FREE. WE COULD SHARE SOME THIS BEAUTY EXPERIENCE.LLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOVE
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Hi Jason
You may find that the Raw Food diet can offer you some euphoria? I know it keeps me emotionally balanced but it requires discipline to do it. I did feel euphoric when I did it 100% for a short time, it was like in the mornings I'd go for a walk, see the sun shining through the trees and feel connected to everything/everyone around me. It was great. Now I'm about 80% raw. But it helps my emotions, particularly trying to get through this crazy world.
We're here for growth. It might seem impossible getting through it but we can manage to grow through all this pain.
And it sounds like God/Creator is really with you, to stop you cutting yourself. So that's great! He's watching over you but allowing you to grow to stand on your own 2 feet.
You'll get there. But please look into the raw food diet, I know there is a real high to be felt on it. (You can see some raw foodists who are high on it, when they do youtube vids). Kristina on raw is another one to 'youtube' or google.