To my awareness, balanced Internet Conspiracy Research hasn´t been considered very popular by lots of people presently. There have from time to time used to be lots of people around claiming to be conspiracy researchers but they did not have the ability then to use technology the way ´Icke´, ´Jones´and ´humanswin´on youtube have been doing for enough time for me to become convinced that I am the first person to be considered a legitimate UFO - ET Conspiracy Researcher. The others claiming legitimacy prior to the year 1999 or prior to the year 1977 are full of it, are being fake actors, or don´t know how to research else than by blocking anyone who asks them questions if they are not being counteraccounts these people have created on youtube or facebook or twitter or skype. Before my arrival, UFO - ET Conspiracy Research was simply not an independent field of research because it was too young to be that. That is as it was being practiced in any meaningful 21st century sense.

What I mean with ´legitimate´is ´balanced´. Before me, balance did not exist in any research into any area per ce. Music, science, astronomy, you name it - balance did not exist in any research because humankind had not been taught anything about balance. Before I was born - that is, on September 22nd 1977 billions of people around the world were wondering about trying to give meaning to their lives because they had got no one to tell them what balance is - that it is something which they must find within so they can practice it beyond within. That is why 1977 is often termed ´the Year of the End Times´. This does not make me anymore special than anyone else. But I wonder why it had in the end to be me who is the first human being in the history of human evolution to my knowledge to consider balance an important factor in his life. After I got blocked for asking simple questions on youtube I came to the conclusion that I am the only balanced investigator operating on this planet who expertizes himself in his field of research - namely in this case painting, until others will read this message and start cultivating balance in their lives. Until then there will be no such thing as balance anywhere because before the clock hit this precice moment, balance did not exist in human history. No one became balanced on this planet because nobody declared themselves to be balanced. Before people had to write whole books explaining why they felt so imbalanced and why the whole wide world around them was so imbalanced.

With youtube and Facebook you would eventually find out that someone was crying out loud that balance is needed in this world for evolution to continue. If people come to this post with the intent to tell me that they are balanced investigators I will refuse to listen to them because I have experienced negative enough reactions towards what I have been doing to the point that so far I am unaware of anybody operating on this planet right now who are being courageous enough to admit that they have in fact reached inner balance. Why? Because if everybody did it it would mean the end of the mainstream media. It would mean the end of an organized power structure based on feeding everyone with enough imbalance by relying simply on that they feed themselves with their own imbalance. The whole nonsential idea that there is a balanced UFO investigator, a balanced guru, a balanced mystic, a youtuber who has reached inner balance and so on crumbles before you once you read this post because to begin becoming a balanced person you have to do what Ramakrishna did to achieve inner balance. You must ask for it. You can´t rely on your own inner state of being to bring balance into your life or a set of 22 different skulls from ancient times as humanswin does. No. You have to accept yourself as the first balanced person you have ever encountered, because if everybody does it, everybody becomes balanced and thus much harder to control. Psychiatry used to call inner balance Scizophrenia, ADHD, bipolar personality disorder, you name it - the more insulting the name calling the harder it was for people to be courageous enough and come out and say ´I am the first investigator who has reached inner balance and who likes to rely on the use of inner balance to do his research´.

Because otherwise you will just block or suspend everybody´s account till you reach this balance. Life is not a cloud on the internet where you can do whatever you want. And when you think  you have reached inner balance but don´t want to come out and simply admit it then you are not being courageous enough to do it because in today´s age more people are calling for balance than ever before versus insatiably few people having actually achieved balance. The others claiming to have achieved something akin to inner balance before my time may well have on some level done it, but ultimately, there is no ´inner balance movement´right now to my knowledge. Don´t give me all that Mother Teresa and JFK bullshit. Real inner balance starts within you. It does not start with you believing that I told you that I have achieved inner balance. It starts when you know you have achieved it. Socrates was killed because he knew this. He was killed by a greedy mob of people who were willing to do everything to keep this knowledge from the youth, because they feared that the youth would use it to control their aging process, their educational process and everything else about their own lives. And so it was easy for them to have him put to death because they got the encouragement of everyone else who thought like them. And I am not remotely comparing myself with him since I am of course alive and operate in an entirely different era. But once I saw what was the reality with youtube, there was no other choice for me to look for the first balanced investigator than within.

Before 2000 there was no one around but me and a few other people discussing conspiracies and political corruption in high places and low places as well and I eventually got told that the way for me to achieve mental and emotional independence lied in achieving inner balance. If I go to youtube and someone claiming to be a conspiracy investigator opens up their mouth and I ask them questions I will most likely be blocked in 1 out of 10 people because I am not operating on the same level of mental balance or imbalance as they are and they want to cover this up because they have been raised in the belief that expressing their feelings about this out into the open is morally wrong. And like millions of other people like them, inner balance doesn´t exist in their lives because they are so terrified of actually achieving it.