the case of desire

they say desire is wanting

and wanting is bad.

so I had the desire

of not wanting

and made not wanting

an obligation by telling me

fulfilling desire is wanting

and not wanting

is not fulfilling desire

but there was the desire

of not wanting

and not fulfilling

I needed in order

to overcome the disire

of wanting and fulfilling

I needed fire to fight fire

and water to fight water

and disire to fight desire

finally I got frustrated

and gave up to think

about desire and wanting

and fulfillment

this was the day the local coroner

declared me dead

and I could see all around me

and felt a desire to live

shit I thought

even in death there is desire

and then I saw God

and Jesus and Buddha

and Adolf and Nixon

and many other guys

guys I said

I came here and wanted

to overcome desire

yes you wanted asshole

they laughed

but you failed

because you wanted to fail

you are assholes I said

you Adolf and Nixon should be not here

right they said

we are messangers from hell

coming only for you

it is people like you

belonging to hell

for you have no balls

chosing a good desire

help me Jesus and Buddha I cried

I have followed your teachings

yes you have they said

like a dog pleasing his master

I wanted to please you I said

no you didn`t they said

your desire for getting holy

has made you blind

and they looked at me

and Adolf and Nixon disappeared

life is for living Jesus said

and desire is for honest wanting

next time you meet me you may kill me

said Buddha did you forget

you had no balls doing so

when you came to church

said Jesus did you not

give up your intellect at the door

I woke up it was only a dream

and I felt the disire

to say a little prayer for Adolf and Nixon

not like a holy clown prays for sinners

but as lover with thankful desire

a human among humans...