If I already havnt been through enough crap, my younger sister decided to leave and not pay any of the bills at this house. Now Im here alone with my daughter and the dog. I now have to chose between paying the rent or paying my car payment and it looks like Im going to lose the car. Im making money from child support and thats it, its very hard finding jobs in Brevard County Florida. I am trying so hard and things keep crashing down on me like this is some kind of cruel test in life.
My sister left because she just got 2 new jobs and instead of helping me like she promised to, she left to move back in my parents house so she could save up money to pay off her debts and move into an apartment. Whats messed up is that I used my child support money to move me and my sister plus her 2 kids and my daughter into a home and I wasted my money since shes no longer willing to support anyone but herself.
Im starting to see who is real family to me and whos not. My mother and sister are very judgmental and over religious. If I dont even pretend to like their God they treat me like Im not deserving of their respect or hospitality. I will never to sink to that level of pretending to like God just to get help from my family. If they decide to not help me then fine, I will do this on my own.
I seriously think its so messed up that my mom tells me Im going to hell and that my sister tells me she wished I would die. I am so sick of whenever I am having a problem and need advice my mom tells me I better pray and that the devil is using me. Im so sick of how ignorant they are and how closed minded they can be.
So, now I really dont have any family except my dad when hes not drunk and I really have no one else seriously. Its just me and my daughter plus this dog named Kodiak that I found on craigslist for free.
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there is nothing called family, we assemble to clear (pay and or recover) our past debts.
do not lose hope, HE is there to take care of his children, in whatever means HE feels appropriate.
Sarah when my Mother died i had to walk away from my family it was a very toxic situation for me i kept holding on to a hope that they would change and this only hurt me i knew what i had to do it was hard but i had to walk away i did not carry away any bitterness with me i just forgave them and went my way in peace i still will always love them. this was a lesson of letting go as kathy mattea sang in a song walking away a winner. may the divine light surround you and protect you. you will surely walk away a winner Sarah love sally
I'd stay away from that toxic zone, and forgive it... It's all just another test of forgiveness. Let it go, get Archangel Michael to sever the ties, AA Raphael to pour golden light into the holes and send them away for healing.
Once when left with bills I explained what had happened, and was able to pay them off slowly. Maybe you could get someone else to move in? Who isn't religious? lol :) It could be a blessing in disguise... at the least I reckon you'll start to feel a whole lot better soon, now that they're gone Sarah. Maybe your chid and Kodiak will start feeling lighter too :)
Peace be with you!
xxxxxxx
Like they say, you can choose your friends, but not your relatives, I say, FORGET THOSE PEOPLE.