My Past

I'm 57 years old.  About 5 years ago I was talking to my psychic friend about her husband and the problems they were having at the time.  All of a sudden, she stopped talking about her husband and asked if I had been in the hospital a lot as a child.  I told her yes and asked why that came out like it did.  She asked if there had been any abuse and if any problems with my parents.  I said just the usual teenage/parent relationship.  She asked if my mother and I had problems.  The usual, I replied.  She told me there is something not right about the hospital and my parents.  I was stunned at her remarks.  I hung up with her and started researching some of this.  I asked for my records from the clinic I went to as a child.  They told me that they were destroyed.  I asked for my hospital records and I received 53 pages with only 4 pages written in.  Pneumonia and a rash.  I remember that hospital. It was brand new in 1950 and closed down in 1971,   I believe I was there so much I had my own room by the doll room.  I requested my elementary records from school and I was absent 14 weeks in my kindergarten and 1st grade year.  Why?  I don't remember any of that.  All I remember is my mother's footsteps coming up the stairs and I would start screaming.  All of this sort freaked me out.  I started talking to psychics and was told that I was given ECT's at around 5 or 6.  Then I went to get a past life regression, twice.  Nothing.  They told me my sub-conscious stops when they get to my childhood.   I understand that I am also going through a spiritual transformation.  This is all so bizarre.  I wish I had answers now.  There are a lot of fragments from my childhood...that tell me something was very wrong.  But they are only fragments.  Is there anyway that I can find out what happened to me?  I need help on this.  My sister is silent and for some reason, I think she was/is involved.  But involved with what???  Crazy stuff.

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