I pray to God as almost every day.

When I went home I saw the stars.

Cygnus and Lyra and I remembered all the stuff.

There were women dancing and nobody looked at me.

Nice women, but too young estimating an old rattletrap like I am.

Sometimes I feel so lonely, so deeply lonely.

I feel I have always been like a loser, an egoist.

I have almost lost believing in love.

They don´t look into my eyes.

But I do and they dodge my looks.

I am seldom drunk.

And if I am, then I feel like having all done wrong.

Except God´s presence.

I even pray when I´m drunk.

And when I can´t sleep.