Yes,
Fellow ACC members, brothers and sisters of the Golden Age,
this weekend turned GNARLY ugly sad car wreck feelings
my wife finally broke down and told me that all the OFF THE WALL stuff I am into...
books on Arcturians, Syrians, Pleiadians and Jesus,
Archangel Michael, cosmic Websites with Angels, scattered addresses on my desk, one of which is Bill Brockbader's Jail address so I can write to him, video tapes on Alex Jones
scandalous reports,
and my constant leaking from my mind,
dribbling statements about how the IRS is going to be gone soon or that the Federal Reserve is going down, vanishing along with humanity's need for money.
oh oh oh,and
and the out of your fucking mind statements about Bush and Blair tried for being War Criminals and going to jail soon...the seminars I sign up for that are SPIRITUAL Woo woo...she thinks David Wilcock looks like a lunatic...my hero..she calls a lunatic...
.So I have been HEART/slammed like a force against a steel wall,
the force of an enraged VENUS, a terrified female/wife/mother/mate.
She says our 12 year old daughter is also scared and they are both watching me get farther and farther away from them, a vast divide opening wider and wider...
HER SUFFERING, FEAR, ATTACHMENT, CONFUSION AND BEING MOSTLY LOST in a sea of worry of LACK, that if she loses her husband, the bread winner, she loses her security. Her love for me suddenly sits second fiddle to her overwhelming state of terror, as she watches me change before her.
How many others are going through the same sudden family meltdown?
I was told by my spiritual mentor from Santa Fe. not to count on anything like an EVENT to suddenly happen that would likely let her finally see that I am telling the truth,
no, I was told, EVERYTHING IS AS IT SHOULD BE...... that who am I to Question GOD and his timing?
Does GOD wear a wristwatch? This is GOD"S BUSINESS, not mine, so focus on my own light.
She also said for me to take a FAST from the internet,
and devote myself entirely to the spirit of my 12 yr old daughter, who is torn and confused and also terrified, not so much of what I am alluding to in the skies above us,
but terrified of a break up of her parents.
I am advised to write on paper, letters to the souls of my two girls, and explain what I am becoming,
and how they will soon find peace and bounty, etc etc...whatever I want to say..
....then I am to ask Jesus to take the messages to their souls when I burn the paper I write the letters on..
burn them,and know that their suffering souls at least got the message I wanted to tell them.
I am advised to DISENTANGLE MYSELF from the Dark, to pay attention only to the light,
and to shine as bright as I can,
and not to become distracted...either by the internet or the suffering of the soul of my wife,
for I am not to water her garden, but to stay on my side of the garden fence.
Tend your own garden, as each soul tends to their side of the road and theirs only.
Her soul never gave me permission to try and change her, or awaken her.
But in my egoistic, paternal and loving manner, I want her suffering to end NOW,( I also do not want to move out of my home!)
so I pray for an EVENT NOW, please GOD...if she changes Grrrrrrreat! If she looks up and sees a light display of 100 flying saucers over Manhattan, and says...those silly weather balloons again...then I know its time to split.
Dear GOD, I can feel the pressure building up, its causing the water to vibrate around me as
I tred water in this churning Matrix and getting all GNARLY. Its like a the biggest BOMB ever is just about to blow now, like any day, any hour, any minute. Take a deep breathe I know..
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WOW cool info thanks
I've just finished reading "The Hidden Secret of the Ages" by Ronna Herman, you could say Archangel Michael is talking about your problem, rlmstudio. And as usual, he's giving very good advice.
Love you, sweetheart.
Major chills here.
I for one, have given them permission to monitor ALL my thougts and feelings, and I also have the impression they are answering to our dilemas. Their guidance and advise are really helpfull, and I really appreciate.
Hugs and kisses for you, are you feeling a bit better?
love and light
I am making up with my wife...waiting for her to come to,her senses and see that I am standing with my arms open, mouth zipped shut cept for kisses.....I will see tonight if she has softened at all, begun to retract her claws...
yes so right,
my parents split in 1990, it was terrible ! not a good time at all BUT you plod on somehow and get through, then i meet my ex who is from a solid family back ground, but when i went into the house i could sense the bad feelings between the mother and father and then the children, they would often judge me as i must have looked like some kind of misfit sitting at their table for dinner !!!!!!
but i would just let the comments bounce off me, cause at least my family were honest and maybe split up, but both my parents are with new people now and are very very happy,
but then me and my ex fell into the same pattern his parents were in ..... and i could see myself in the marrige for ever, and if i had have been truely happy i would gladly have stayed but the marriage got worse, so in the end i said the marriage was over, and after weeks of rowing he left the home,
we did grow apart and also we were on different wave lengths, the family unit is well odd !!
yes, its safe .....
i hope she is ok, i knew a woman about 14 years ago who left her 2 children and husband because of a very abusive marriage etc, he wouldnt let go, and in the end she just went, she never kept in touch with no one, but i was in touch with her ex as he was my ex husbands best friend, anyway ..... 1 year ago he died suddenly at 44, the children are now about 18 and 19, but i relocated up this area of the uk and they are down south,
i got rid of my ex husband as my marriage just wasnt working out, i only had one child, obviously she is with me as my ex wouldnt be able to look after her as he works, but its tough on me as i have no personal life, im a mother,
its very difficult and i do understand about mothers who go and leave the home, i would never judge them ever, its a very sad situation.
Staying centered, gliding through, I like this, I will stay VERY STRONG in my resolve to not let her need to mold me into a copy of her, her fear that I am becoming less and less like her every day...she sees me moving into a state of glorious spiritual wonder, and because she remains locked tight in her shell, it makes her more and more frightened...SHE IS FRIGHTENING HERSELF,
I must say, you do get people who find excuses to leave their partners because they dont have the courage, to state they no longer love someone, so maybe ask her, if your beliefs are just an excuse for her to leave, or if its something else. One wouldnt want to think their Awakening was responsible for loss of love, so just check. She might have other motives, but its just easy to blame you, because she can.
Stay strong, and children often choose mom's side, so also be gentle here, you just keep on showing them the love and you will win. XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
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