I was recently reminded of the fact that I have an ego. At first when you hear this, you get angry. Actually the ego, does not like to be acknowledged as something bad. It gets hurt and angry.
"I" was also hurt and angry.
I am able to recognize its voice now, because the voice of ego is always revolving around the "I", "ME","SELF".
So whenever I heard "How can this happen to me?" "Why is she/he doing this to me?" "I will not let this happen to me." - I knew it was my ego talking. Is it bad?
I was being manipulated by my ego, even after recognizing its voice. I knew that I am getting angry for no reason. I am having crazy expectations from people because my ego demands it. Yet, I could not control it!!!
The voices made me crazy. Still do!
I started experiencing headaches, fever, body pains, esp- chest pains (which are a result of broken heart syndrome, not a heart attack.)
All of this because my ego was telling me that "I am hurt!", "I am being used!", "I am being cheated!" and so on and so forth...
There is no one else in my mind. There is only me, my ego!
My ego is hurting me, my ego thinks that I am being used, my ego thinks that it's being cheated!
But can the real self, a self that is just part of this universe and the self that is just an energy, Be hurt? Be used? Be cheated?
Would my real self - my soul, ever say these things?
My ego is just a name, a name that I created for me thinking it as necessary. It separates me from you. It tells me that YOU and I are different and separate. YOU and I can hurt each other & love each other.
Osho said - "Love is not something that we do. Love is a happening."
Love is always happening in you. Just feel it. Experience it.
And We are all one ! And this is how we break the illusion of ego !
There is no 'you' and no 'I'. 'You' is as human as 'I'. 'You' is as sad and as happy as 'I'. 'You' is just my mirror. 'I' can change the image of 'you'. 'I' just need to feel the love. 'You' will automatically feel the love.
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This is very valuable knowledge.
"But Knowledge is not the same as Wisdom, Knowledge is knowing, Wisdom is doing it!"
--- Peaceful Warrior (Movie)
I wrote the above write-up on Aug 19th, and it took me some weeks to release my ego.
I finally learned how to apply this knowledge or rather I should say the knowledge finally manifested itself in wisdom - slowly but surely.
There is no secret here, just that this knowledge takes different kinds of forms of wisdom in different people. I used the power of a "light" which I saw when I was in hypnotherapy. It reminds me that you and I are one!
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