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I was dignosed with ADHD and PTSD by a bunch of pysch testing last year. both ive been my whole life. I realized during my previous drug use with Cannabis that ive ascended to levels and did not even know it was called ascending. i was givin adderal and lithium from my doctor and i had a death experience with comming off a high dose of lithium-coldturkey. I died, went to heaven, talked to angels told them i need to go back because of my kids, then shot straight back into my body with the worst pain ever, note, ive gone in labor 3 times with my children which is very painful but this was way worse.   anyways, after that i learned my love for acid and shrooms, then i went to treatment and now im currently on my Adderal. it works nicely for me and my focus,  i also feel that i can meditate so much further than when im not on it.

Does anyone have any knowledge on this, some people who are not aware tell me they think its HORRIBLE and ill never be able to truely ascend, but with my own thoughts i feel its usefull. -im not a drug addict, i went to treatment for a felony charge not relating to drugs whatsoever, started the acid binge out of pure bordum and curiosity, it was the best...