It was with great anticipation that I checked my email today to find out that I had been accepted for membership and two members had extended the hand of friendship. WOW!!
I wanted to be able to express my heartfelt gratitude to all members of the AC family for their aid in helping me out of 'The Pit of Despair'!
My confirmation email says my blog is supposed to say something about me and contribute to the community. I hope this covers that.
It was about 8 weeks ago that I reached a particularly low point. I have been in 'the pit' before but I don't believe I had managed to go that far down. The line "Knowledge is Power" kept going around and around in my head but all I could feel was Powerless. I had managed over a great period of time to isolate myself from the general population, only going out when necessary to shop and work, no socializing. My work is somewhat of a haven as my collegues believe I am (affectionately) away with the fairies! Ha ha. I have lost most of my friends and my sanctuary became my home, where I thought I was free to be ME. My kids always refer to me as an 'Alien' due to my Universal interests and Spiritual beliefs, as well as not being like anyone else they know. I didn't feel I needed to censor myself in my own home. Then, one evening whilst I was speaking over dinner (can't remember what now.. yet another social injustice I think) my Mother said to the kids "has your Mum been reading her magazines (alternative media) again, and it is a New Moon" (a New Moon affects me far more than a Full Moon). Well, my little bulb dimmed and switched off and so began my descent into "The Pit of Despair'. Dinner time became very quiet after that!!!!
Then one day whilst surfing the net during my lunch break, I somehow ended up with a link to AC and it seemed a lifeline had been thrown to me. I realised I was not alone with my story, my feelings, frustrations etc etc. Since that time I have filled every lunch break and evening with a log on to AC and devoured all I could like a greedy child in a sweet shop!!! I could feel myself becoming stronger and heading toward the light and my levels of confusion from all of the information I had amassed over the years began to clear. I was learning so much from being a spectator on AC that I was beginning to find my TRUE self again, allowing my heart and not my head to take the lead, along with the clarity that comes from doing so. I feel that I must make a mention of the rock that I attached my rope to as I made my ascent to the light...Drekx. I have found your postings to be not only informative but extremely grounding. Words cannot express how it felt to have that guiding force that pushed me forward and over the edge into the light. I too got excited at the thought of Sirian Tours of Motherships, where HOPE was once lost it is now found. Many, Many Thanks.
I feel I made a great shift at the weekend appreciating the gift of being here on Earth now in 3D and all it has to offer and will try everyday to see the miracle in everything!!
Ravinda I loved the Laughing clip. Tears rolled down my face with laughter. I decided that I would look everyone I meet in the eye and give them the biggest smile from my heart that I possibly can and it really is amazing what can happen for you. No more hiding away. I have made a call not to arms but to Joy, Love and Laughter!!!!
With much Love, Gratitude and Blessings to all of you.