My Defying Story

My name is Michael, i am one who has learnt some harsh lessons in human life, losing all my posessions in a fire, from a clean bill of health to being physically ill to experience death.of a loved one. The man who i would speak to about my spiritual thoughts and understood me had cut me out.

I spent my days and nights numbing myself, had gained 20 kgs, i was covered in darkness.

i felt like i was trapped in a vortex of negativity and could not get out, yet at my darkess time in a moment of dispear, driving on a motor way i screamed my lungs out and cried my eyes out, i had to let it out, i had to come to terms with my broken heart, excepted and acknowledged apart of me has be lost, my innocence, so from that point in time i had to do alot of healing.

Healing is and was a difficult process, cause sometimes regressing emotions and then finally dealing with them can lead to dwelling not reflection which could cause relapse and escape,

Two years had passed in that time i had picked my self up of the floor so many times, i had felt that fire and it burnt me, i had remembered my beloved god daugthers death and it hurt, everytime i would go to see my doctor i an overwelling fear in my heavy heart.

My perception of how i saw my life was broken glass, felt like i was knocked down over and over, i could no longer see my beloved angels or hear them yet i knew they tried to talk to me through music, finally one morning as the sun's rays hit me, the warmth of the golden rays spoke to me.

""IT'S A NEW DAY MICHAEL, TIME TO REALISE YOUR GREATNESS, YOUR BIRTHRIGHT , ALL THAT YOU EXPERIENCE, ALL THAT YOU FEEL, ALL WHO YOU ARE, IS A REFLECTION OF ME, WHY ELSE DO WE SHARE THE SAME NAME? IT'S NO COINCENCE MY BOY.

The walls around my heart melted, the demons in my mind that consumed me had become nothing more than shadows behind me as the sun shined brighter.

That day i saw myself for the first time and now had become something else, something stronger, and now.......

I find myslef working with others who experience crisis, i do not share my story with them yet i can connect with them as i have understand and awareness of what they are experiencing and over time i see that each experience mine and others creates tools to learn THYSELF.

WHY i'm i telling you this? cause this is for the ones out there who have lost it all and fell, ultimatlely there light in the darkess place,

No longer did i see myself as broken glass my spirit but pieces of puzzle that needed to be put back together, i forgave myself, i forgave others and wished them well.

THIS IS MY DEFYING STORY AND IT CONTINUES.......

NAMASTE

MICHAEL

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  • Thank you for sharing. I need remindings like this, these very days...Love Karen
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