A little Lost and Without Power

hey guys i know it's been a while, i'm going to try and be more consistant with keeping in touch
just been very busy
but now need help badly

the dark wants me at full power out of fear of something worse that could come about
and the light doesn't because they can't control me for thier bidding, i'm not thier warrior and they do not like that!

now for whatever reason i don't have my magic
i have some healing gifts and such but NOTHING compared
to what i should be able to do
and will need to do soon enough to keep things
from going to s*** around here...

i don't know where my book is
i don't have all my artifacts or such
i think i'm in trouble...

and i don't know how to call them back
let alone how to get my powers in order again
i think i need a jump start

ontop of this i'm led to believe a dark person has gotten hold of some of my items and tockens and things i need to excell in my state to help!

can anyone help me with this?