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I am one of those ancient souls who just doesn't always get it right, from studying many past lives that I have recalled or explored by way of hypnosis I definetely have a problem with going against the grain, following orders and finishing my tasks...hence why I'm one of those who just don't get it right!?During this time of solitude Im finding myself falling more into myself and avoiding the problems of this 3D world. This is what I'm suppose to be doing, but to me this is rather scary as I feel it's a trap to lure me away from my real objectives!?It's like I know it's the right thing to do but I keep holding on and I don't understand why??These feeling are coming to a head as I have been studying Captain Sayzarzillions answers to my recent posts, but part of me is hesitant to admit he may be on to something!? I find I'm in turmoil as it seems there are three parts too me that are in turmoil:The A Part (Which wants to keep going the way I have been and eventually figuring it out on my own!?)The B Part (Which wants to explore this new path!?)The C Part (Which seems to want to go off in another direction as there seems to be something there on the horizon that is just beyond view...its like you can see this thing but you need to get closer to fully understand it but all these other things are getting in the way of making this discovery!?)I have been warned about straying off and not completing my objectives and not completing my tasks but somehow part of me feels the objective is unatainable and cannot possibly be completed!!If you knew that in the past your indecision caused the destruction of an entire civilization because of your actions what would you do?? You wouldn't want to make the same mistakes again!!I am at a complete loss as to what to do next...~_~

Yeah I know but which one is the right choice, the "B" or the "C"?? But is thinking the "right choice" even the right idea!? Maybe I should just go with my feelings and what feels right that always works for me!! I notice that when I try to logic our my decisions (or in this case indecission) and use the analytical and logical sense of making a decision it doesn't always go best in my favor!? Something things it works for, like with work and things like that, but this kind of stuff, feelings seem to work better!?

The problem is both of them "FEEL RIGHT" but you can't climb "Mount Everest" and look for "Buried Treasure" at the same time!?....

I need to mediatae more because this is getting wierd in a good kind of way, it's just very intriguing and perplexing like going down a road you know you've gone down before but can't remember when?...or How you got there? Like missing time almost?...it feels comfortable but in a DEJAVU kind of way!? Am I making sense or just babaling??

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- Sashia Ishizu-Ishtar > Montanawolf June 29, 2009 at 11:43pm
  
  Yeah I know but which one is the right choice, the "B" or the "C"?? But is thinking the "right choice" even the right idea!? Maybe I should just go with my feelings and what feels right that always works for me!! I notice that when I try to logic our my decisions (or in this case indecission) and use the analytical and logical sense of making a decision it doesn't always go best in my favor!? Something things it works for, like with work and things like that, but this kind of stuff, feelings seem to work better!?
  
  The problem is both of them "FEEL RIGHT" but you can't climb "Mount Everest" and look for "Buried Treasure" at the same time!?....
  
  I need to mediatae more because this is getting wierd in a good kind of way, it's just very intriguing and perplexing like going down a road you know you've gone down before but can't remember when?...or How you got there? Like missing time almost?...it feels comfortable but in a DEJAVU kind of way!? Am I making sense or just babaling??
- Brett WONDER Addleman > Sashia Ishizu-Ishtar July 2, 2009 at 2:15pm
  
  DEJAVU Kind of way??? I can totally relate to you... I have been given a vision of my futer a while ago... As i followed it I started to have crazy DEJAVU... Also from reading your post I think you are a dreamer. I'm the same way. You told me about using logic and how it never works. That's because you invision stuff thinking it's going to give you the feelings you wish to have, BUT when the experiances comes around the feelings do not mach up with the experiance. Also you have doubts of following your hart. Your hart is unconditonal love. But youve been conditiond by experiance. So you fight your self thinking if I fallow my hart what if people don't except me... If you let go of other peoples opinions then you can let the light within shine which will be like a becon twords the universe and the right people will come into your life to help you on your path.GOD BLESS and MUCH LOVE
- Sashia Ishizu-Ishtar > Brett WONDER Addleman July 2, 2009 at 11:52pm
  
  Right on my man...you hit it right on the head with that one!! I even dug up a recent tarot life reading that was done for me about 90 days ago and what you said in your post was the exact thing in the reading. other peoples opinions of me is important to me and yes it gets in the way, that was in the reading too!? Most of the stuff you just said was in the reading!?....DEJAVU all over again....~_~
- Brett WONDER Addleman > Sashia Ishizu-Ishtar July 3, 2009 at 12:29am
  
  But look at it this way If your friends with mostly guy's It is usally chill because they are not all about drama and gossip... How ever most girl's judge each other and compare each other to one another... Which kind makes it hard to trust them...
- Sashia Ishizu-Ishtar > Montanawolf June 29, 2009 at 11:34pm
  
  Oh you always have something philisophical to add to the discussion don't you!?...why can't you just say "Take the Blue Pill" or "Use the Force" or something simple, LOL....you always got me thinking, you must make your living as a teacher??...(and no I don't mean here either I mean in a Public School system!?)
  
  But I got you or at least I think I get it...I can't take your ideas (The New Wine) and put them in my (Old Bottles) my old beliefs and make them work, it doesn't work that way, or at least that's how I'm interpreting your message??~_~
Sashia Ishizu-Ishtar June 30, 2009 at 1:48am

WHAT!?...you're not an idiot not at all, don't even say that!! I get it...I get it, it just took me a moment to process it that's all. But my Japanese brain has digested this stuff and figured it out in it's own Asian way.^_^

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