Life...it really is an adventure!?

I'd like to take this time to share a part of my life with all of you:First off I want too say this is one of the few places I feel not only comfortable, but accepted and yes loved something that had been missing in my life for some time!I maybe wrong but it has been my understanding that we are in our own ways apprehensive to reveal the dirty things going on in our lives which are not only unpleasant and shamefull, but sad, humiliating and even painfull. Who wants to reveal the dark dity little secrets within their lives for fear of judgement, scorn and derision.Though I loathed it I found myself returning to a particular location in East LA, my guides informed me that I had work here and though it would be dangerous I would cross paths with someone who like me (walked the path of light and love) and that there was work we'd be doing together.I had my job and money in the bank, I had friends who I use to go out and we'd do stuff and I was in the process of returning to school to continue working on my degree. I was happy with my life and how it was going.Fast forward to December 2008 as Bush-o-nomics begin to make the whole country fall apart. I experience this in a personal way when my work hours are cut from (32-38) a week to (18-20) and then (10-12) and the next thing I know I'm informed that I along with many of my coworkers were being laid off.Frantic I tried to find work discovering that Im underskilled for some jobs or overskilled for others.From January to May of 2009 my entire life fell apart, I cannot return to my old job it has come to a standstill, I cannot find new work, my student loans were denied along with my application for Calgrants, the money in my checking and saving ran out and my friends seem to be turning their backs on me and are no where to be found!?Im not sharing every little horrid and appalling detail, you can use your imagination to fill in the blanks!Today is my 6th week and 1 day living on the streets of Los Angeles, I live on $221 general assistance and $163 food stamps. I've received several sugestions as to how to pick up either extra money or enough money to get out of this situation; ranging from prostitution, drug dealing or some other criminal activity? NONE are appealing to me nor do I have a desire to pursue any of them!! Applying for (Unemployment Benefits) is a complete nightmare and the hoops and dog and pony show they put you through to receive monies that are rightfully yours is ludicrous!!I may have lost much and one might even think this whole experience has turned me into a bitter narssasist, but the fact of the matter is the experience has set me free and opened the door to a power and depth of wisdom I didn't know I had?Hence my recent blog post:Help someone you just met?Trust a stranger?Do something for someone you don't know?I have no bitterness at my employer or at the people who cross my path on a day to day basis. There is a saying "God only give you what you can handle"!? I guess he thinks I can handle a lot, he must think I'm a SUPER HERO, lol!?Well if all goes well a friend is returning from Costa Rica and I'll be able to stay with her for a while and god willing I can put all of this behind me and chalk it up as another experience...either way armed with my quick wit, carefree sense of adventure, a smile on my face and child like curiousity my adventure continues...^_^

Oh I forgot too mention that I did find a person who walked the spiritual path of light and love and we ended up becoming good friends. Though I haven't seen him for a while, he was drastically affected by the negativity of that place himself, his car broke down and he got stranded down there for a while. His life sort of came undone during that time as well. I was told we will reunite when the time was right!? Wouldn't a simple "yeah you'll be friends again in time now you got to wait" be sufficient!? Don't know about these Guides sometimes, lol!?^_^

Thank you, Shasia, for sharing your life's experiences with us. You are not alone...others are not alone. I was jobless for 14months at one time...no money to pay for mortgage etc etc. I was a single mother back then in ...1997. I had my older daughter living with me and in school. I didn't have any money for food but did find $7.00 a day for my girl to go to school. I lived on bread & water...worrying sick everyday if the utilities will be cut off etc etc.

You are not alone. Some of us understand what you are going through. I didn't have anyone to back me up ...and where I was living...we didn't have any food stamps nor social security back up. When life gets tough....it is easy to feel down and depressed...but never 'shameful'. One should never be ashamed that we couldn't find any work...as long as we keep on trying..and never give up hope.

We pray that your friend will come back soon and help you out with accommodation. You are on my prayer list. Just know that you are being loved by God and your spiritual friends and am asking God to send Earth Angels your way...to help you...put you back on your feet again.

God bless you abundantly with all that is good, happy, wonderful, peaceful, healthy and all the wealth you need to do His work. His Light is always there...for you...just focus on His Light. He is journeying with you...as God has always been journeying with me....during those difficult times. God will never forsaken you. Give praise & thanks everyday...no matter what happen as gratitude is the key to the doorway of abundance and opportunities...of all that is right for you.

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Michael charles david jay July 4, 2009 at 6:21am

dear sashia , many have been there too my dear without the knowledge of guides to help keep
going without the knowledge of angels and higher selves and you recieve much more money than
times gone by how do i know because i was one of those people i am 66years old so tighten
your belt yong lady have faith in your mighty I AM presence your riding the rapids down the mighty
colorado canyon, it will be diffulcult eat good simple foods
any kind of beans eggs porridge with honey cut out the sugar as much as pos and lots of green vedg
you will get used to it when i was 18/19 and in a much worse situation i prayed with all my heart
to god and god answered and that gave me the strength and courage to keep going, yes even commiting
things that we were ashamed of later on in life as long as you admit them to yourself and forgive
yourself its hard, remorse and all that and if there was any one else involved ask the spirit of that
person to forgive you, the lords prayer may help said daily love and blessings and angel thoughts
mike jay
Sashia Ishizu-Ishtar June 23, 2009 at 8:33pm

I understand, like I said being a fire sign...a dragon and a Samurai is not always easy...ie, I'm temperamental and sometimes cut with my sword and ask questions latter.~_~

This hasn't always been easy for me, when people come at me like that (or how I think Moons reply was) I take it as an attack and yes sometimes i get defensive, i.e. I get a little b*tchy...don't pull on the dragons tail or ears!! Even us dragons make mistakes.~_~

Sorry Moonlight~_~
Sashia Ishizu-Ishtar June 17, 2009 at 8:50pm

Well beautiful people, we have a development here. My frist day using that prayer the good Captain sent me (thank you again) a friend wants me too join her in Cincinatti, Ohio!? The good thing I'll have my own room in her home and a shot at attaining a job at a factory with benefits and all that good stuff.

PROBLEM~_~ With the exception of her I don't know anyone in Ohio for one and for two my life to a degree is HERE>>>i.e. my doctor, my school (when I get everything sorted out), etc, etc...plus I have more than I can take on a bus....so what to do??

I thank all of my Ashtar friends out there for all your warm thoughts and kind words and loving support...thank you!!^_^

Are my guides telling me they want me out of this area because they're not happy or am I being directed to Ohio for some other reason??
- Sashia Ishizu-Ishtar > Sashia Ishizu-Ishtar June 23, 2009 at 8:28pm
  
  Well that situation didn't work out, but I haven't given up, there's a lot of things coming my way and wonder where all of this is going anyway!?
  
  I don't think my spirit wants me to go to Ohio or any where else that's why that deal didn't work out!? My work is here, because this place needs it. There is a lot of bad here in LA and it needs lots of healing and light!! I'm amazed as to all the things coming out of the wood work, I have a nice offer too move up into the hills away from the city in nature which is what I love so much I'll be able to paint and be among nature it's just I'm not the only selection but I have faith. I have some great job offers and other offers for making money other than doing criminal stuff which is what I won't do.
  
  Thank you Captain for that wonderful prayer I'm amazed to see what's going to happen at the end of the 33 days I'm overwhelmed now!?
  
  God Bless all of you out there^_^
Agnes Khoo Schwenk June 16, 2009 at 12:36am

Thank you, Shasia, for sharing your life's experiences with us. You are not alone...others are not alone. I was jobless for 14months at one time...no money to pay for mortgage etc etc. I was a single mother back then in ...1997. I had my older daughter living with me and in school. I didn't have any money for food but did find $7.00 a day for my girl to go to school. I lived on bread & water...worrying sick everyday if the utilities will be cut off etc etc.

You are not alone. Some of us understand what you are going through. I didn't have anyone to back me up ...and where I was living...we didn't have any food stamps nor social security back up. When life gets tough....it is easy to feel down and depressed...but never 'shameful'. One should never be ashamed that we couldn't find any work...as long as we keep on trying..and never give up hope.

We pray that your friend will come back soon and help you out with accommodation. You are on my prayer list. Just know that you are being loved by God and your spiritual friends and am asking God to send Earth Angels your way...to help you...put you back on your feet again.

God bless you abundantly with all that is good, happy, wonderful, peaceful, healthy and all the wealth you need to do His work. His Light is always there...for you...just focus on His Light. He is journeying with you...as God has always been journeying with me....during those difficult times. God will never forsaken you. Give praise & thanks everyday...no matter what happen as gratitude is the key to the doorway of abundance and opportunities...of all that is right for you.
- Sashia Ishizu-Ishtar > Agnes Khoo Schwenk June 16, 2009 at 8:47pm
  
  Thank you for your share....I wasn't sure about revealling this stuff!? I actually got scorned at a couple other sites and ridiculed, I feel it's important for me at least to share my life whether its good...bad or...indifferent!? We are all here to NOT only teach or instruct but too learn.^_^ Thank you for your prayers and your wonderful, encouraging words.
- Sashia Ishizu-Ishtar > Agnes Khoo Schwenk June 16, 2009 at 8:44pm
  
  BTW...I forgot too mention this. I was told that all the money you find on the sidewalk and what not that that is the deads way of saying they are with you and trying to help you from beyond the grave!? Don't know about all that but it's funny because my dad he always helped me out even to the point where my parents would put off vacations or buying something for themselves if I was in a pinch. My dad was my champion and I was told that he stays close too me, it's funny but I'm always finding money in on the sidewalk almost everyday I'll find at least a penny, but sometimes more nickels, dimes, quarters and even dollar bills. I use too spend it but someone told me too save it its like building or accumularting your luck!? I'm not sure about all that but when you were talking about the God of Gold and all that those coins always mysteriously appearing came too my mind!?^_^
- Sashia Ishizu-Ishtar > Agnes Khoo Schwenk June 16, 2009 at 8:36pm
  
  Thank you I'm going to print this out and DO IT!! Thank you so much Captain you said in your profile you are here to save the day and you've been prooving that to me every day!?^_^
- Sashia Ishizu-Ishtar > Agnes Khoo Schwenk June 16, 2009 at 8:35pm
  
  I wonder what was done to you to have such a negative outlook on all things, all the time!? Is there no love, no compassion, no kindness within you Moonlight Rose?
  
  Namaste, Moonlight Rose^_^
- Sashia Ishizu-Ishtar > Agnes Khoo Schwenk June 16, 2009 at 8:30pm
  
  Thank you very much for your warm and wonderful words of encouragement and love and support. I do look at this as and adventure, it doesn't matter what I'm doing or where I'm at, everything is adventure and excitment. I may be miserable at times ( won't deny that) but I try to maintain a positive attitude about all depsite any setbacks or disruptions. I know what you mean about the lights, they do guide me in my journies to people, places and things.^_^

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